MINDBUGGLING

MAN VS FACIAL CARE

2012-02-08T12:30:00.000-08:00

I've been struggling with my facial problems since I was a little kid.Okay,I lied.Since I was 14 or something,if I wasn't mistaken.Unlike those beautiful boys,I have no beautiful skin.I have a very normal skin for Malaysian guy,which has some acne here and there,with oily face and also,scars are like fucking everywhere!

I also have been this type,I don't know what type since the name is too difficult to remember,Garnier for Men user! Yeah,it really works.It blemishes and cleanses all of those stupid impurities in my face,literally eliminates all of my acnes,leaving only scars behind.I feel like,it was the very first time I found a skincare product worth to buy!

However,I was so stupid.One day,I went to Watson and buy another skincare,which I thought it was the one I usually wore.I applied it to my face,two times a day.A week after,that fucking pimples were there once again in my face.In my cheek,nose,forehead,every part of my face!

Now,it's been three days I didn't wear any skincare product.I feel so undeniably fresher than Febreze! I don't know,I tend to believe things happened for reasons.One sure thing is I need to stop putting too much chemical substances into my face! What do you guys think?

Tapi emak selalu pesan,budak lelaki kalau takde jerawat,tak hensem lah...

YEAH,AFTER ALL THIS TIME

2012-02-02T13:27:00.000-08:00

Do you know,one of my wishlist since I was in high school is I want to master everything about Adobe Photoshop? Yes,it might sound easy,or nothing to some of you but not for me.My laziness is killing me!

In my fourth semester,I have to take a subject called Electronic Publishing.The subject is mainly about Adobe Photoshop and Adobe Illustrator.Need to design logo,magazine cover,t-shirt this and that.I hated it at first because I don't know how to use whatever Photoshop since I was an ignorant when it comes to it before!

But those bloody hell many assignments given by the lecturer forced me to learn it.I was in do or die situation! Therefore,I have to learn how to use it extensively.Day by day,I'm getting used to it and guess what,it wasn't hard after all,I never thought I could do it.However,I'm still in the learning process!

This is the outcome..It might be so common to all Photoshop master out there but I have tried my best! I'm still learning,remember? Hahaha!

THAT MINI 'FOREVER ALONE' MOMENT

2012-01-19T13:01:00.000-08:00

This happened to me,lately and frequently.One day,I have decided to jogging alone,simply because those friends who are used to jog with me past semesters have classes during evening,since we were all not in the same courses.

Then,the moment when I started to jog....People around gave me this kind of look.....

They were staring at me like,Kenapa dia sorang-sorang? Mana kawan-kawan dia..Hmm,something like that! Some more,Loser lah sial mamat tu,forever a loner! Even worse,Dia ni mesti perangai macam sial,sebab tu takde siapa nak kawan dengan dia....

I admit,I have mixed up well with the society.I have established a warm relationship with so many people.Just like you,I have friends,here and there.Not saying,I'm lovable by them,but I know my friends are way more larger in amount compared to my enemies.

At certain stages,an unpleasant feeling dropped by for a while and I suddenly thought that I need to be alone.I repeat,I need time to be alone.I need think to myself without any distractions.I need to detect what is my problems.I need to explore why I am so fucked up.I need to jog at least two rounds in order to get my Jared Leto's body.

Yeah,I need to be alone,for so fucking many reasons!

To be honest,I don't give a damn that much actually.People can think whatever they want,and I will remain as cool as ever! Moreover,heroes are mostly loners,just think of Spiderman...Sexy sexy! Well,any of you experienced this?

CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE

2012-01-16T11:15:00.000-08:00

Everybody loves chocolate.Like,who doesn't right? No one seems can forget the sensational feeling when you put it into your mouth and chewing it softly with the closed eyes.What a mini happiness moment!

I'm pretty sure all of you got your own favorite kinds of chocolate,aren't you? I used to have my favorite one before,but I just don't have any idea what is the name of the chocolate..It all looks the same,semua bentuk siput pantai tuuu,similar shapes but different species and tastes as well.I'm not sure if it's available in Malaysia,because if i wasn't mistaken,my mother brought the chocolate from somewhere,I never asked.

Whatever,the fact is no so many people can resist their temptation towards chocolate.You name it,Cadbury,Mars,Snickers,Kit Kat,Kinder Bueno,Ferrero Rocher, Nestle Milkybar and the list goes on until tomorrow.Currently,my favorite is this one..

Yeah,I know it is wafer but I prefer to consider it as chocolate! I don't know.It just tastes so good.If normal-sized Kit Kat won't be able to satisfy you so bad,you seriously need to grab this.

What's your favorite?

BEST/SADDEST KOREAN DRAMA EVER

2012-01-12T13:56:00.000-08:00

Korean drama? Eww.There must be some of you nowadays who can't stand the word Korea.Yes,here Korea,there Korea,everything's Korea.So overrated,right? However,you need to trust me on this very post.

Last night,I watched this Korean drama called Autumn In My Heart.First of all,can you believe the drama came out on 2000,and I just watched it,like very now,on 2012? Screw me,I am 12 years late! Anyway,thumbs up for me,I managed to finish all 16 episodes in just a day.

How many of you watched it already? Well,I don't think I should summarize the drama,since most of you knew how was the story,right? Enough said,it was the best,the most sad Korean drama have I ever watched so far.Everything was set-up so beautifully,until I felt like....malas la nak describe....

What's wrong with me,I'm watching so many sad stories lately.Whatever,any ideas,for any awesome dramas or movies? Couple days ago,I watched Koizora.

Bilik gua banjir bhai tengok Autumn In My Heart ni

PEOPLE OF THE YEAR

2011-12-30T03:31:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that 2011 is going to end,very soon.Wow,time flies really fast,I don't even realized it passed by.See the post title? People of The Year? It sounds over the edge right? Who cares.I'm going to list all of those people who I just met this year but managed to make me feel like I have known them forever.This is going to be a a very long post.You better scroll it to the bottom,okay?

Nur Syuhaida

She changed me,completely,inside out.I never thought it was her! Well,that was life,full with surprises.I used to be a cracked egg,but she turned me into the golden one.It happened so fast,so sudden.Until this moment,half part of my life still can't believe this.Dramatic much,huh? I love you,Rainbow

Wan Ahmad Fareez

He was probably the closest human being I have ever encountered with.He was my roommate,the bestfriend,oopps,brother! This might sounds gay but we shared everything,stories,experiences,problems,clothes,foods,you name it.Wow,I miss you!

Muhammad Farhan & Myra Shariffudin

Let me introduce you to my parents.Yes,they have been a very good parents to me and Fareez.Especially,my father,Farhan...don't be too excited if you read this but you are among the coolest people have I ever knew,seriously.So unpredictable and adventureous! Ohh,my mother,Myra,she was weird,but I like her.Her laugh can travel a thousand miles,it was so loud! Damn,I had a lot of blast altogether with them,a lot!

Adik sayang emak dengan ayah sangat-sangat...*muntah darah!

Syafiq Muhammad

Wow! I knew him since last year,but we're getting close started from this year.Listen,he was the most funny,outgoing,outrageous and hilarious creature ever! I never met someone like him before.He was like electricity,he generated everything into something that can be laughed off like there's no tomorrow! I don't know how to thank him,for making my life full with endless laugh and maximum enjoyment! Sugar sugar sugar!

Hazim Yusof

He was my classmate.I knew him since I was in Part 1,then we're getting closer day by day.Well,I always envied him for so many reasons! Hahaha.First,he was so hardworking! Second,he was so good-looking! Third,he was so popular! I am so sure you guys who own Twitter account out there know him well,right?

Syed Abdullah

He was the most handsome friend of mine.Don't be fooled by his innocent puppy eyes,he was a very athletic for your information.No wonder every girls were dying to be with him.We're hang out a lot,talked a lot,laugh a lot,I hope everything will remain awesome as ever

Mohammad Ridzuan

He was my own Ipman,but with his own trilogy! He was my roommate since three semesters ago,it's been a long time I have spent my life with this guy! He was super-funny,he usually said ridiculous things but never failed to make me burst out laughing! We were so close,yeah,I don't want to lose someone that is so cool like him.

Actually,I have so many other people to be listed down here.I'm not saying that only these people were actually there in my life throughout the time but these are the people who play major roles which make them massive characters in this entire year.Who changed me.Who created me.Who never failed to make me feel like I actually have a good life!

DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER 'BAHASA F'?

2011-12-26T15:12:00.000-08:00

Do you? Well,if you're in the same age range as me,which is born in the early 90s,not knowing what the hell is Bahasa F is a law-breaking act of teenage life.Hahaha,kidding!

I first heard about this fucking odd language when I was in Standard 2...When a girl,a classmate of mine,I didn't remember her name,said to me,

" Khafalifis sifihatfat? Mafamcamfam defemamfam jefe?

I was a little bit sick that time,if I wasn't mistaken.I was like,get off from my fucking face you female dog! But at the same time,I wondered,what was the language that came out from her mouth? Then,asked her.She said it was Bahasa F.Later after that,she took a piece of paper and taught me everything about it.

When I was mastering that language,I used Bahasa F a lot with my friends.Seriously,I felt so much like Russian spy who knows all the secret codes.Besides,not all people understood the conversation,since not all have that interest to use Bahasa F.Yeah,I miss my old times! A lot!

Mafacamfam mafanafa defenganfan afawakfak sefemuafa? Bofolehfeh kefe cafakapfap defenganfan Bahafahasafa Fe? <-- Thumbs up if you understand this!

THE EPITOME

2011-12-18T19:54:00.000-08:00

I went back last weekend.I met my bestfriend and I asked him to cut off my hair,since it's getting thicker day by day.I was simply ask for do-whatever-you-want-as-long-as-it-looks-good-on-me hairstyle.So,he gave me this

I'm loving it.I don't know,it might looks weird on me,but I'm loving it.So,I went back to the campus last night,so many people were like,ehh rambut baru.I was like,yeahh *flip hair.I've got no problem with that,at all.But when people asked me,kenapa kau potong rambut? I got the answer but I didn't know what is the most appropriate way to voice it out.

Life is all about creating and experimenting yourself.You are the one who knows everything about yourself,everything.Why don't you try too look up for something new,step out from your comfort zone and breath in the freedom air? Fuck to what other people going to say,it's not them who live your life.

That is my answer,I rest my case.

I HATE THIS TYPE OF GIRLS,YUCK

2011-12-10T21:27:00.000-08:00

This post stands for general views.No intention of pointing fingers to anyone.

I have a friend,not really close but we know each other.She's really beautiful,she knows that,everyone knows that.Fair-skinned,wavy hair,close to Megan Fox's body,a mile-long legs,cute lips,beautiful smiles,everything's perfect physically.One day,she said something,sound like..

"Why I can't be pretty like other people.It's not a good feeling to be ugly!"

When I heard it,I was like,eee simbah asid please! Nak jadi hodoh sangat kan? I don't know if she's seeking for an attention,having personal problems,or maybe she's having PMS that time but I think it is so unnecessary for her to say those things.I mean like,how could you say that when God already give you so many things that other people have to live without?

Love yourself girl,because no one is going to love you as much as you do.Be grateful on what you own,because nothing is going to lasts forever.Life is too short to complaining,especially when you actually have nothing to complain about.

DEAR YUE YUE

2011-12-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

Have you heard about Yue Yue? Yes,that unfortunate two-years old girl that hit by a car twice and being ignored by 18 people in China? I'm pretty sure that all of you have watched the video right?

I watched it,emotionally.I cursed for about thousand times during watched it.Yes,I was and am mad.She was ran over,two times,and surprisingly the people around just don't give a fucking fuck at all.There were 18 people passing and they did nothing,like fucking what? That was just unbelievably pathetic!

I thought the civilization develops current in line with those modern technology,fast-rising economy and skyscraper buildings,but I was clearly mistaken.I don't want to go there.I don't want to live there.I don't want to step on my feet to disgraceful land of China.It must be really awkward and strange,when you have to live there with those selfishly bastards and insecure piece of shits.

Serves you right China,people all over the world now underestimating you.Fuck you,for really show me what is the real definition of disappearence of humanity values that people always talked about.Now I have seen it! Fuck you,stupid communist.

Dear Yue Yue,I believe that you're now in a better place.God took you away because He doesn't want you to live in that awful place with ugly society.

DON'T YOU THINK KELANTANESE CUISINES ARE DELIGHTFUL?

2011-12-01T13:47:00.000-08:00

This is the truth.I can resist anything,almost anything.Except my temptation,towards food.I don't care if my life is suck,pathetic,hopeless and miserable,all I care is I want to swallow good foods! Because I know,good food will give you good feeling,right? It better be good,or I don't take it at all,that's me.

Hmm,talking about food,don't you think Kelantanese cuisine are delightful? I don't know,I don't say other state's local cuisines aren't awesome but there is something different about Kelantanese one.Lately,I have a sudden addiction towards these two.

This maybe sounds overreact but Nasi Dagang is one of the most mouth-watering dishes ever! The rice is so sticky and creamy,matches the fish curry and those colorful vegetables as well.I ate it every Tuesday,I bought it at pasar malam.

I thought it was Kuey Teow at first,but then,I knew that Laksam is a legend.Damn you,my tongue,my throat,my tummy,they were all really welcomed you,Laksam! By just saying your name,I feel like I'm cute! Lak-sam...Eeee,annoying.

Both of them aren't going to cost you much,seriously.I mean,you don't have to spend or waste your money to taste deliciousness because quality isn't relies on price.You know,I'm getting bored of unhealthy consumption of fast food.

MY PASSION IS LARGER THAN YOUR HOGZILLA!

2011-11-22T10:06:00.000-08:00

I love to draw.I love to color.I love to paint.I love to paste.I love to combine everything to make it look fantastic in my eyes.I'm not saying myself capable to create something that have extreme art value.It's enough if I'm the only one who knows the story behind.

Since I was a kid,I really like to express my emotion with my-own-way of art works.You know,Pendidikan Seni is my favorite subject.When I was in Form 4,I was in Account stream but I wished to change into Art class but however my mother didn't allow me to.Reason? As the first child of the family,it is normal if our parents put hope on us and maybe she thought that art is not something that really match her expectations of me.

I obeyed.I was a little bit sad at first.But things went perfectly,even until now.I was happy and I am happy.I realized that why don't I kill two birds with one stone? I want to keep hitting whatsoever things that were expected by my mother and also having blast with my passion with the art works at the same time.Moreover,doesn't mean that if you love something,you're so going to make it as your profession.Life is all about making the right choices.

I know some of you might think it looks fine just like another art works created by other humans while some of you might think it looks like a piece of shit as well.I don't give a fuck,simply because art is a subjective matter.

ICE-CREAM CONFESSION!

2011-11-15T08:13:00.000-08:00

Do you guys love ice-cream? I bet 8/10 of you love it,as much as I do.Wait a minute,I like ice-cream but I don't face any symptoms of ice-cream addiction or obsession.Heck me,who cares,as long you feel good when you put it into your mouth.

One day,I was walking along the frozen food area in Tesco.Then,I saw so many ice-creams,came out with so many different names and brands.It was a hot day,so I decided to buy one.I was searching which one would going to be the best selection for me...

Well,everyone knows about this Baskin Robbins,especially girls.I had it several times,but only the small cup one,it was delightful.The image above is the 500ml,which is way more larger one.It was just an ice cream,but I can buy two medium-sized pizzas at Domino's.It was so expensive,for an ice-cream!

After that,I saw this Ben & Jerry's.Ohh,I don't even know this brand exists in Malaysia since I saw it on Travel & Living Channel a couple years ago.It was one of the best ice-cream in the world,no wonder it was a little bit pricey,I can eat five footlong breads in Subway with money that amount.

Damn,I was so broke that time but I really wanted to eat an ice-cream.I mean,a very good-tasted one with a very low price! Worth to buy and easy to get.What kind of ice-cream is that? Hahaha,this one lah my friend....

This one is a legend! Eat this Potong ice-cream twice and you will forget about another ice-creams,seriously.Do you know that ice-cream functions the same towards human bodies? It makes you want to throw out because it contains milk and cream.When you feel like you're going to throw out,you're surely forget everything about ice-cream including Baskin Robbins and Ben & Jerry's.

Eat this Potong,and you will save a lot of money!

THE FINAL EXAMINATION RESULT

2011-11-03T16:02:00.000-07:00

The first thing I did when I saw my result was I shaked myself,how I hoped it was only a dream.I'm not being dramatic here but I failed for the second time for getting DL.I improved,but it is not enough.I feel like I'm letting my parents down,eventhough they said they were quite proud of it.But why? Why it has to be ended like this?

Stop it moron,you're going to make me throw out.Past is past.There's nothing I can do about it.But I must admit,I miss this kind of feeling.Loser.Failure.Hopeless.Feel like going to cry out loud.Tears falling down while smoking in a room where silence and loneliness take their part.Now,I feel so much like a movie star.

But that is not going to bring me down.Just as cliche as everyone else,I will work my ass off again next semester,seriously.I'm not done with it.I will never give up.I will make sure no one can stop me from expecting the best.You know,guys must dream high?

I shall thank Allah for everything.Alhamdulillah.Syukur.I believe He knows best.

YOU KNOW WHAT'S HURT THE MOST?

2011-11-02T16:23:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow is going to be big.Why? Because all of UiTM students going to get their final examination results.

It's really torturing when I'm thinking too much about it.Like,what is my result going to be? Is it going to be good? If it is,how good? Or is it going to be bad? If it is,why? However,I always think negatively about it,like my result is going to be tremendously disaster.I better do something that will make me forget everything about it,at least for now.

You know what's hurt the most? It's not being rejected by the people you loved for a long time,it's not you lost someone you dying to be with and it's not your friend is sleeping with your girlfriend.To me,the most hurtful feeling is when you failed at something you put a lot of effort onto.

Whatever.I believe Allah knows best.This is what I like about my life.There are so many unexpected and unpredictable things already happened and going to happen,I guess.Well,history shows it all.I just hope nothing but the best for me and everyone.

THE MOST OVERRATED FAMILY EVER

2011-10-31T18:14:00.000-07:00

Do you know that Kim Kardashian is divorced? She has filed a divorce after just 72 days marriage to Kris Humphries.Do you know that the marriage cost about USD 18 million? It lasted for only a couple of month? What a waste,if only they donate it to needy one,would it be nice?

This makes me wonder,are they're being real? Whether you like it or not,the Kardashian family is the most overrated family in the world,they're being so dramatic and pathetic at the same time.Cheers for that.Keeping Up With The Kardashian is hilarious.Then,came The Kardashian which is okay.Then,came Khloe & Kourtney Take Miami,which is typically boring.Then,came Kim & Kourtney Take New York which is a brilliant bullshit.Then,came Khloe & Lamar which is I-am-so-done-with-it!

I think Kim's Fairytale Wedding is just another media strategies to maximize their profit.Actually,I don't get it why people love them so much? Especially Kim,Khloe and Kourtney? What did they do? They didn't do anything instead of cursing their own mother.They are being famous for nothing.

Poor you Kim K,you failed as a wife so many times.Wait a minutes,what is longer than your wedding? The answer is my penis.

BAPAK NONTON SINETRON NGGAK?

2011-10-27T17:14:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.

Do you love watching Indonesian sinetron? If you ask me,surprisingly my answer would be yes! I used to hate whatever dramas or movies produced by that country because of you-know-why reasons.Should I elaborate? You know better.

My mother is not a big fan of television,don't ask me why.She loves to do everything but watching television.However,a couple of years ago,things suddenly changed! Weekdays at 6pm,she tuned on Astro Ria to watch sinetron.I was like,what in the world is wrong with my mother? So,I watched the sinetron too,with her.I remember our first sinetron was Cinta Kirana.

Please,I found that the story was a brilliant bullshit,packed with irrelevant scenes and non-logical acts.It was a never-ending stupidity.But things were completely different in my mother's eyes.She loved it,so much.To see her so interested with that kind of things,as she smiled,laughed and cried for it,made me felt so happy because she never look like this since 2004's Sana'y Wala Nang Wakas,a Filipino drama.

Nowadays,I watched them with my mother.I found that this mother-son activity really made our relationship stronger than ever.Sinetron is no longer something weird for me to watch,yet it is quite stupid but hey,why don't you try to give a shot? Currently,I'm watching Dewi,because Rianti Cartwright was on it! She's so cute!

Sinetron.Kalau yang jahat,memang jahat betul,kalah segala syaitan Yahudi laknat semua.Tapi,kalau yang baik,memang terkena debu sikit pun boleh nangis,punyalah suci,rapuh dan tak bersalah.

Ahh,pokoknya gw nggak peduli.Ya iyalah,janji hati seneng,nggak ngerepotin gw aja udah cukup.Bokapnya gw juga happy-happy gitu...

BITCHFIGHT,YES,BITCHFIGHT!

2011-10-24T11:52:00.000-07:00

I just viewed a link,shared by a friend of mine.It was a video,titled Perempuan Gaduh di Kedai Kasut.Well,as usual,it was a bitch-fighting,nagging,yelling,slapping and it was boring actually.What impressed me the most is the comments about the video.

Yes,comments.There are thousands of them for sure.Almost 99% of the comments said something sounds like,'bodoh punya betina,pasal jantan pun nak gaduh,buat malu kaum hawa je. and 'Buat apa nak gaduh? Kalau nak batang sangat,sini hisap kote aku'.I admit,it was stupid.But do we really have to say such things to the person we don't even know? I'm not trying to be like an angel here but please imagine or put yourself in this situation -

You're walking alone in Tesco,searching for some groceries.Then,an unknown came into you and he/she suddenly saying things to you,and punch you in the face in the middle of crowd.What will you do? Standing there doing nothing like a dog? Or fighting back?

This is one of many examples.You don't know what is happening but you dare to insult? Why being such a judgemental? Swear to Lord,I'm not fucking defending all of those bitches who fight their asses off,I think they are being such an extreme bullshit instead,but I believe asking people to stop judging is similar to asking people to stop eating,they will never stop! The real one you should insult is the one who recorded all of the scenes,I mean like,what are they trying to do? Well,that is a real definition of public humiliation shame!

Sorry,if it was me,my fucking feet will immediately going down to their fucking throat.Hell to the people around,as long as I managed to smack them down.Let me finish the one that punched my face first,then I will go for the one who uploaded the video.

THE SEXIEST ACCENT EVER!

2011-10-20T11:11:00.000-07:00

Why do you people think French accent is sexy? There is too many vibration pitch,which I think it makes your throat itch.Well,I don't know,maybe media plays a main role when they signified French is a language of love as Romeo and Juliet themselves are French!

I do think that people talk with Russian accent is a major turn on! It's sexy,way more sexier than French I guess.The way they pronounce every word is cute,it sounds continuous with the frequent usage of letter 'V' but that is where the sexiness takes part.

I really have no idea where the hell of this kind of sexy language thing came from,does it really matters anyway? I think because this girl below.

Katarzyna Dolinska

By saying her name,you can tell how super-sexy she is and how mighty-sexy her accent would be.

DOES GUY'S LOOK REALLY A MATTER FOR GIRLS?

2011-10-17T17:07:00.000-07:00

Girls.I realized one thing about them lately.I finally know not all of them really care about having a physically perfect boyfriend.

Perfect? Well,perfect is mainly about all of the dazzling elements that can impress everyone.Maybe we can say that it depends on individual since those criteria usually made by personal interest as different people come up with different thought but the real thing is perfection isn't as too different from what is used to be in girl's mind.

What is it? I can say most girls want a guy that have adorable face,six-packs abs,muscular body,170++cm tall and so many other common things that are so correctly expected by humans.Why girls love Robert Pattinson? Ashton Kutcher? Chace Crawford? Tyson Ritter? Do you really need to know why?

However,not all of the girls demand a hunky boyfriend in the first place.My perception towards girls only want a best looking boyfriend had already change since I stepped into university,where I met a lot of girls and asked them,what is the first thing you look from a guy? I can say that 7/10 of them answered personality.What? I thought being handsome is everything!

I even asked my girlfriend,

Me : What is the first thing about me that attracts you?

Rainbow : Your personality.Your look comes in second,where I consider it as bonus.

Me : Look? So,do you really think that I've got a look? Fuck,finally!

Rainbow : T_T

Guys believe what they see but girls believe what they hear.

Nothing is as true as this.

DO YOU THINK YOU'RE SEXY?

2011-10-12T05:21:00.000-07:00

Do you? Well,in this modernization era,I think people are intelligent enough to describe the real definition of sexy,no? Okay,maybe sexy is a subjective matter itself.Thus,the meaning might be different based on individual eyes.

In my perspective,sexy is not about juicy lips,big handful watermelon tits,tiny waist,Beyonce's butt,French accent and those kind of things.Apparently,I choose not to be that kind of stereotypical when it comes to sexy.I mean,you don't have to take off your shirt to make people call you sexy,that is so yesterday!

Therefore,I think you people should set up your own definition of sexy.Why you have to listen to other people? This is all about you,no one knows yourself better than you do.Follow your heart,your intuition.Be a sexy beast! Rawrrrr!!!

I believe that sexiness can be achieved by both man and woman,as long they are feeling good and confident about themselves! That's it,I rest my case!

WHO CARES IF SHE'S FAT?

2011-10-09T11:23:00.000-07:00

Hi.

I know I might be too late to post about this but no one gives a shit that much,right? It's my semester break! I just arrived home from the campus with a couple of friends.On the way,one of them were turning on the radio and guess what,the song Someone Like You was on the air.

Here's the truth,I used to be an ignorant of her presence before.I was like,what's so special about her? She looks like a lazy plus-sized woman.Besides,seeing her just sitting on the chair,in Rolling In The Deep kind of make me said,move bitch move,shake that thing! Oh,I forgot,she didn't have curves like today's artists.She had a nice voice and that's all.

Until I heard the song in the car.At that moment,I thought to myself,why so many people love her? So,I tried to listen to Someone Like You for the very first time.I closed my eyes and three minutes after that,I am one of her fans.Do you really need reason why? I don't think so.

Now I know the relevance of Adele fever!

Can you believe she's 23? Damn,I thought she was 43!

GOODBYE,KILL ME!

2011-10-02T23:55:00.000-07:00

Eventhough I know,and I believe,that nothing lasts forever and all people have to deal with it,I am still struggling to understand the process of human seperation.Yes,we could meet someday,but everything's changing that time.That is the only thing I'm afraid of.Okay,if they say don't think about what will happen next,just live your life to the fullest in present,motherfuck,it ends the same!

How could I forget someone like you? You have came into my everyday life,put a smile in my face,made me laugh like there's no tomorrow and then now you're leaving? What do you expect me to feel? God,I hate dealing with consequences!

We came,we met,we left,we moved on and finally we forgot.I hate saying goodbye.Please,I'm not being dramatic.I don't get influenced by hypocritically bullshit movies or stuff because this is so real.However,I feel so lucky,to have known those people who made goodbye so hard to say to.

I take friendship seriously.I hate getting closely attached to people because I don't want to get hurt in the end.

BUZZ ME HERE,PEOPLE!

2011-09-25T12:51:00.000-07:00

Hey look who owns Twitter account! Hihihi.I'm such an outdated douchebag.I know you guys owned it since T-Rex was a baby,am I right? I just made it a couple of days ago since I thought I should have one social network for a back-up.I know right,Facebook is dying!

You can follow me here twitter.com/kehoecheong

OH NA NA,WHAT'S MY NAME?

2011-09-22T17:17:00.000-07:00

Nickname.Do you have one? What is yours?

During my entire lifetime,I do have several nicknames given by other people but they still prefer to call my real name.Therefore,to be called other than my name is so uncommon and unparallel to my universe since then.

Things turn into another story here.One day,I was on my way back to campus with my best buddy,Muhammad Farn.He picked me up.Then,there were his friends inside the car,both were UIA students.We mixed together very well since they were being such a dickhead,never stop talking crap.After that,they were thinking that I looked like a puppy and giving that fucking baby dog's name to me.

It was so unethical to my ears at first! Farn used that name to call me,same goes to my closest friends here.They were saying it loud,like hundreds of times,over and over and over again,until I found myself getting used to it now.You want to know what is the name? It is..

KHALUIHHH...

To pronounce it properly,you must say it normally at the part 'Kha',and then,give your highest pitch at the part 'Luihhh'.It sounds strange,isn't it? I don't know what kind of puppy name is that actually.It is more into an African sex language,perhaps a Jamaican name or even maybe a ghost name of Red Indian's myths,who knows? Whatever,as long as it sounds cute,it suits me.Bahahahaha!

I'm cutting my hair short! I'm feeling like a puppy now,Khaluihh..khaluihh..khaluihhh..~

MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRET #1

2011-09-17T11:31:00.000-07:00

CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT I AM MY OWN ICON OF SELF INDULGENCE?

BIRTHDAY BUDDY POST!

2011-09-12T18:04:00.000-07:00

Hi people.Do you really miss me?

You know,past couple of days was my birthday.Well,I usually didn't celebrate it at all before.I mean,I'm not going to have cakes,party and stuff.I'm not boring,I'm just thinking that I'm big enough to blow that fucking candles on that fucking cake because that was so fucking 10 years ago.

Last Saturday,I realized that all people were acting kind of weird because they didn't behave normally like they used to.I thought to myself,why? I talked to my friends and from their eyes I can see that get-off-from-my -fucking-face-you-manwhore! look. I went straight to my bed,earphones in,volume up,it was All Time Low time.

I woke up at midnight,alone like a dog.Suddenly,there was someone knocked on the door.I was like,who the hell? The door is not fucking locked,bitch.Just open them up.Since I don't give a damn much about my fucking birthday,guess what? History repeated itself.

I feel like I'm turning nine again.It's cool to see all of them gathering just to celebrate my birthday.I'm speechless.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY BUT I LOVE MY BOYFRIENDS!

WANNA MEET MY NEW PET?

2011-09-02T16:23:00.000-07:00

Since I got my fucking own driving license,my motorcycle is no longer needed,completely.Pity him,he must feel very upset for sure.No worries,I'm so going to use your services soon!

My father gave me his old car.Well,as you can see from the picture above,it is not a Mini Cooper or Mazda 2,or even Audi A4.It is just a 15 years old Proton Saga.It is an old car,a senior car! However,it is still in a good condition as everything is pretty fine inside out.I understand if some people are saying that my car is an ugly as an old teapot,well,at least I got a car,like hello?

For that reason,I think it is more than enough.I can go whenever and wherever I wanna go absolutely with no sweat and not getting wet caused by the pouring rain.In case if you don't know,my car already got a name,can you guess what? I called him Charizard,you know what is it,no?

HAPPY EID,PEOPLE!

2011-08-30T02:39:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA,MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

Well,I'm a human.I can't escape from any imperfection elements,well simply because,again,I'm a fucking human.I have sinned to people a lot.Therefore,I would to take this opportunity to ask for forgiveness from all of you.

Please,forgive all of my mistakes and wrongdoings towards all of you.To forgive is the most highest,most beautiful form of love.In return,you will receive untold peace and happiness.Do you forgive me? Please say yes,a fucking yes! We're friends right?

Wow,I only managed to get RM4 for my duit raya.

DO YOU REMEMBER?

2011-08-21T02:12:00.000-07:00

Hi people.

I just want to ask you a question.Do you still remember both of girls below? Who used to be a sensational stars,which is also known as pop princesses of the music industry back then? Damn,one more thing,they used to be every little boy fantasy in the 1990s.

Britney Spears.

Who doesn't love Britney? Every boy wants to date her,every girl wants to be like her.She was more than a public figure.I recognized her name since I was 7.Do you remember Oops I Did It Again,Lucky and Sometimes? She doesn't show any sign to stop,even until today,but I still adore her old songs which was in her first debut album.I miss the old Britney and I wish she hit me one more time.

Christina Aguilera.

She was such a baby,don't you think? When I was kid,I found myself so hard to pronounce AGUILERA,and that was the moment I knew her existence.I really like Genie In The Bottle and What A Girl Wants,fuck she was as hot as hell! It's funny when you love Britney but you must hate Christina at the same time just because they were so called rivals.

If you remember back to the 1990's,we don't have instant stars or reality program stars as much as today.Besides,there were also no viral Internet talentless star wannabes like Justin Bieber or Rebecca Black.Therefore,to say both Britney and Christina were famous for nothing is so far from the truth because they actually did something compared to those young artists today,upload stupid fuck videos on YouTube,get discovered and BOOM!!

In my perspective,both of them provide people pure entertainment,something which is common but still fun to listen to,and that is what pop music all about.To be frank,I don't understand pop music today because there are too much mixture and combination.You got what I mean,right? Too much stuffs happening.

Thumbs up if you're still listen to their old songs today.

UTM IS NOT AS COOL AS UiTM.

2011-08-11T23:40:00.000-07:00

Hello.

First of all,I know this post kinda lame because I have been so fucking outdated lately.Do you ever heard blog posts like UTM Bukan UiTM? There are so much versions of them actually,written by most frustrated students of UTM who against the misconception of their university name.I repeat,just because of the name.

I don't get it.Why are you so mad? If people ask you whether you're in UiTM,you can nicely say no,right? Don't blame those who asked.Don't blame those who studied in UiTM.Just because you were selected as a UTM student,doesn't mean you can say that UiTM students are stupid.Just because UTM were ranked as a top university,doesn't mean you can say that UiTM is a second class university.

I must say that I'm a little bit surprised by the way your people behave.This is the products of top university called UTM? Underestimating and downgrading other people by mindless words and nonsense sentences? I thought you guys were so much more better than this.Instead of classy,I think you're a pussy.An ignorant-egomaniac pussy,for real.

I'm a student of UiTM and I'm proud to be one.Who cares if you say it is a second class university? My parents proud of me there.I learned a lot.I met so many cool people.I did those things that I never did.I found my strength and ability.Because of that,I'm very upset when someone complaining and criticizing about my university.To those UTM students who have been throwing shits all over UiTM,don't forget to look before you fall.

Ingatkan budak-budak UTM semuanya high class minded.Ye lah,orang pandai lah katakan, sampai malu sangat kalau orang tersalah-anggap kata universiti dia tu UiTM.Punyalah high class,sampai maki-maki dekat blog.Melayu oh Melayu.....

High-class sangat kau ni Meon.

AS CRUCIAL AS FAMILY

2011-08-02T23:31:00.000-07:00

Friends.I have so many of them.I'm not saying myself commonly likable by human but I'm pretty sure you have plenty of them as well.

I find out that there are certain people who are still struggling to find their true friends.How about you? I have found mine and words can't describe how lucky I am.They are countable by fingers but do amount really minds? I don't think so because sometimes less is more.

Can you describe true friends in your own words? True friends are not a bunch of people who you just met last night,smoked two packs of Dunhill and talked about life until the dawn.The next day,you uploaded all of the photos taken on Facebook with a caption ' They are my best friend forever!'.

Screw you,do you really think Paris Hilton My New BFF is extremely real? What I mean here is the time itself influence the real definition of friendship.The longer you have been with each other,the stronger your friendship will be.

I always believe that true friends are mostly came from my childhood friends.The people who I knew from my past moments.The people who watched me grew up.The people who witnessed my up and down moments.The people who is are actually there when I need them.The people who walk in when the rest of the world walk out.Yes,I'm pretty sure about it because it happened.

Beware of you open your heart to,only few are care,the rest are just curious.

p/s : Salam Ramadhan to all of you.

Overwhelming K-Pop

2011-07-23T12:57:00.000-07:00

Have you ever heard a phrase called K-Pop?

K-Pop is not something weird for me actually,since my sisters were so into it.They watched channel 391,which is the Korean channel called KBS World like everytime!

It's hard for me to accept the music at first.I found that there are so many people in a group,and all of them look the same,small eyes,pale face,blond hair and strong make-up.Something going wrong with the songs also,it's repetitive and autotuned all the time.When you hear them singing,you will hardly recognize if it is man or woman,human or robot.

But that was then.Now,I don't find myself suffers any problems of awkwardness anymore when it comes to K-Pop.In fact,I really enjoyed myself most of the time.

This is so lame,I know.But I really love them.Nothing is shocking nowadays if so many boys were so into SNSD.They introduced me into the real K-Pop,all of the catchy yet childish songs,cute dancing,lollipop waving,mainly everything seem so fine in my head.Well,I know all of their songs,you name it people!

When it comes to favorite,it's too hard to select only one.I really like Tiffany.However,Hyoyeon is the most fucking cool among all of them seriously.She has untypical Korean beauty and she can dance like a machine.I just can get enough!

Well,this is my favorite male group.I just love their songs,it makes you want to move! Same goes with their music videos,most of them were unforgettable because it was awesomely made.Have you watched Lies and Haru Haru music video?

I really adore the leader,G-Dragon! Damn,he is so cool! He's a great songwriter,if you translate any of his song,it is beautiful.

What is your favorite group?

MY GREATEST REFRESHMENT IN LIFE

2011-07-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

When I'm with her,I wish time stops.Because they said once,that time will run fast when you are happy.

Do you ever feel this feeling? Is that normal?

It's true that we are in the same campus,but it's false if you say that we meet each other every single day.We're not in the same class,and not in the same course.In short,eventhough we are madly in love,we rarely meet each other frequently.

But that is not even a threat to our relationship.We still believe in our love,as long as we kept our faith and promises.That's why if we met,I found myself so hard to let her go.I just want to spend my time with her,together all by ourselves.

I feel like,I'm on the climax of my love life.I'm already in the stage where I can say that I have found the right person,the perfect one for me.There ain't nothing better than this feeling,When I looked into her eyes,I can see someone more like myself.When the world turns upside down,it's nice to have someone upside down with her!

I don't care how fucked up this life is as long as I can live it with you.

THE DISSAPOINTMENT

2011-07-08T12:36:00.000-07:00

I was trying to memorize the song If I Die Young lyrics by The Band Perry on YouTube this evening.Then,I accidentally read the comments posted by the viewers on that video.It was all about the murder case of Caylee Marie Anthony,a little girl who was killed by her own mother a couple years ago.The case became sensational once again lately because the judges decided for not giving death penalty to the murderer.Everyone was so shocked and started to questioning where's the justice?

That was in Florida.Enough of the States.It also happened in Malaysia.Do you remember Nurin Jazlin? She was killed in a really terrible way.It's too sad to describe it actually.She was missing for about 20 days.Her body was found inside a bag,with a cucumber and a brinjal was found stuffed inside her genitals.Even her own parents were not able to identify the body as their daughter's due to changes of her physical features.Since then,the murderer is still free from any accusation.

Suddenly,I remembered watching The Lovely Bones with my sisters about a year ago.I was so afraid if someone will kidnap my sisters.Then,he rapes and kills them.After that,he buries them elsewhere.Motherfuck,it is way too scary! God,please don't let such things happen in my life I'm begging you.I just don't know what to do with myself if I lost them.

How could human be so heartless nowadays? If you are really depressed or frustrated about something,you don't have to kill someone just to make sure that you're attaining your psychotic satisfaction.How many people like you out there? The world is no longer a safe place to live in.

To all the murderers,you could escape the world...

But you could not escape hell,Allah is watching you right now.

TRIBUTE TO HONEY STAR LOVERS!

2011-07-03T10:29:00.000-07:00

Can I ask you something? What is your favorite breakfast cereal?

I used to be a fan of Trix.You know what's that,don't you? It was the type of cereal with various shapes,flavors and colors.Never getting bored eating it because you can eat yellow bananas,red apples,purple grapes and so much more.Besides,it also taste pretty fine! However,Trix was no longer available in my place.I was searching for it everywhere.I really miss that white skinny bunny!

I must find another replacement for my favorite cereal! Yes,you're right! It's not Koko Krunch.It's not Corn Flakes.I already changed it into Honey Star! It happened since Fareez stayed with me and we always had our breakfast together with that yellow star-shaped thingy!

We are genuinely a bunch of happy guys.But we get more happier if....

TAADDDAAA!!!!!!!

SO WHAT IF IT'S FRIDAY,SLUT

2011-07-02T11:45:00.000-07:00

I maybe too late to post about this.Hmm,do you know who the hell is Rebecca Black?

I am just lazy to Google more about her,like seriously.Can somebody just tell me how she could get 160 million views on YouTube? When my sister asked me to listen to Friday,I was like,what is this shit? She sounds like The Nanny gone mad,which is so unethical to human ears.I hate the way she pronounced Friday,it makes me shiver,it makes me want to vomit.

Not just the song,but the video also is a brilliant bullshit.All of the scenes seem so wrong,mainly everything is wrong! The best part is when I hit the dislike button.Go watch the video by yourself,you will know why.

Let say if she's really come out with a new song featuring Justin Beiber soon,I think nothing is more terrifying than that.I can't imagine how many curse words come out from the people from all over the world.

Dear Rebecca,thanks for teaching me that Saturday comes after Friday.

BREAK YOUR HEART? ABSOLUTELY NOPE

2011-07-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

I think it is a good news for the people who love me.

I think I'm in a process of slowing down my smoking habit! It was a kind of involuntary feelings actually,because I never thought I could survive a day without my usual routine.To be frank,I used to be a heavy smoker back then.I smoked about a pack of cigarettes which contains 20 altogether in one day but now I can minimize it into only 6-7 of it.How cool is that?

My mom didn't forbid me smoking because her husband did the same thing since he was born.She always told me to slow down because smoking is like,killing yourself slowly.Same goes to Rainbow,who asked me to slow but do not stop because she thinks I looked cool when I was smoking.See,she's weird and I love her!

Why don't I just quit? I will work towards it for sure.

GOOD THINGS HAPPENED,AGAIN AND AGAIN!

2011-06-24T13:27:00.001-07:00

So many great things happened to me lately.Life is as sweet as sugar,too sweet until I feel like I don't deserve it.What a surprise! Because I used to be a boy who once felt a non-stop emptiness in my life before.Suddenly,it changed drastically.Do you ever feel that way?

Sometimes,I'm a little bit afraid.I'm afraid I can't control myself from being happy.I'm afraid I will just can't get enough.I'm afraid I will turn into something I said I would never be.I'm afraid I will lost everything.

But I believe,in your lifetime,you've gotta do what you've gotta do.Being way too concern and secure could ruin everything.At certain times,you must take a step out from your comfort zone and breath in the freedom air all by yourself.

Dear God,I'm so glad you heard all of my wishes.I couldn't be any happier than this.I couldn't ask for more.Now,I can't sleep because my life is better than my dream.

WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT COCORICULUM?

2011-06-24T01:46:00.000-07:00

You know,in UiTM you have to select a course for cocoriculum until your third semester.

When I was in my first semester,I have been in Kesatria Negara.Being neat and clean is so not my thing,short hair,short nail,white socks and black shoes.Plus,the yelling all day with marching repeated all over again every Wednesday evening.All of friends were also there,suffering the same pain with me.Am I sound too dramatic when it comes to this? No,I just can't live in the situation when strangers forced me what to do.

In my second semester,I joined Bahasa Malaysia Debate.I was accidentally entered this course actually.There was something wrong with the registration system because I have selected another course but when I logged in,my name was on debate class.I regretted at first because I was lonely,all of my friends were in Entrepreneur Club.I tried so hard to fit in myself and things were getting better day by day.It was a two-hours full of excitement class,the people around were so awesome.From a beginner,I kept practicing.I never thought that I can talk seriously.Finally,I managed to scored an A!

I am in my third semester.I thought I want to continue on debate but the class were already full,same goes to another classes.Only one class left and it was Thoughts of Nation Leaders.What the hell is that? Damn,it happened again.I'm alone like a dog,all of my friends were in Entrepreneur Club again.I entered the class for the first time last week and shockingly it was my thing,people! It was mainly about politics,and I love it! I really hope that I can score A again.

Don't ever regret something because you have been placed in the right path.Once you there,all you need is direction to perfection.

TO ME,IT'S WEIRD

2011-06-21T07:40:00.000-07:00

I felt so sleepy.Then,Fareez came into my room.He brought something,it is a Ricci Strawberry Soft Licorice.His girlfriend gave it straight from Australia to him!

It is like you eat a plate of plain rice with strawberry jelly.Weird,I know it sounds like a brilliant bullshit because I myself felt a little bit awkward when Fareez asked me to tastes it.Damn,it tastes really good actually.

Rocky is still on the top,for sure.

p/s : Aku tengok Laddaland hari Sabtu lepas.Take my words people,cerita tu paling best sepanjang 2011 ni.Berterbangan popcorn aku sebab terkejut beruk.

FREAK OF NATURE!

2011-06-15T20:09:00.000-07:00

I have no class for today because it got cancelled by the lecturer.I was boring.I have got nothing to do instead of playing Plants vs Zombies.In the end,the game was a brilliant bullshit!

Snap a picture with your own webcam wasn't so bad after all.It was a good way to wasting your time actually.I was experimenting with face imitation.You should try it,because it is such a good therapy when it comes to cure boredom!

When I feeling hungry...

Hunger is the most unpleasant feeling,right? When I have no time to eat,I felt like I'm the star of a heavy film where you actually can see my serious expression all the time.In my dictionary,hungry is starving.

When I woke up late for 8am class!

I will scream 'Aaahhhhhhh!!!' for the first five minutes,and then immediately rush to take my bath.I went to bed at 2am everyday,and only managed to close my eyes two hours after that.I think I suffer major complications when it comes to night sleep.

When I managed to finish off my assignment.

Nothing is more relaxing than this.It is like,an open door into the world where I can be in for 257 back-to-back episodes of dream.Imagine how long?

When I watched Sasha Grey.

I am young.When I want to do something,I want to take it until I can't take it,take it no more.Who doesn't like to watch porn,right?If your boyfriend said he doesn't,he lied.

When I was feeling handsome.

Fuck,I think I'm getting handsome right now since my girlfriend said that 'Khalishh handsome' everyday! It is a good motivation to please yourself with a little complimentary because everyone is beautiful in their own way.

When I was singing Grenade.

My favorite part is But darling I'd still catch a grenade for yaaahhhh..

p/s : Aku tahu ramai yang rasa nak pijak je muka aku bila tengok gambar-gambar dekat atas,kan? Hahahahaha!

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED

2011-06-12T20:07:00.000-07:00

Last Friday,I went back home with my Rainbow for the first time ever.We were really enjoyed ourselves during the journey.I saw she slept,and she was so cute.When we arrived,we were starving and went straight to Kenny Rogers.Damn,I really miss that girl!She went home with her friends,while I was waiting for my father.

Right after my father fetched me up at bus station,he asked me something which might sounded a little bit unusual.

Father : Handphone Khalis okay ke?

I was like,apa benda dia ni? My handphone is totally in a good condition.It was a weird thing actually,when he started to ask because he never did before.However,I gotta a feeling that tonight is gonna be a good good night.Therefore,I decided to lie a little bit!

Me : Tak berapa okay lah,dia banyak rosak.Alarm tak bunyi,battery kembung,cepat panas,kadang-kadang line tak dapat dengan kalau call tak dengar suara orang.Kenapa ayah tanya?

Oh my boy,you are so fucking hyperbolic! Then,he drove me straight to BB Plaza.He asked me to look up for the new phone! I was like a wolf that time,searching here and there for the best selection.My father suggested Samsung Galaxy and Sony Xperia but I dislike touch screen handphone.Then,I came up with this idea!

I never expect this.I never thought this could happened since I was the biggest anti of XL size handphone! Well,it is a normal Blackberry Curve,something which is not going to 'wow' you much but it means huge to me.I need time to experimenting it,BIS? BBM? BB Pin? I'm so thankful to my father.Oh mi papa,te quiero tanto!

Umur dah nak masuk 20 pun,bapak belikan handphone lagi.Gedik.

I WISH I WAS A ROBOT.

2011-06-10T12:29:00.000-07:00

I am stupid.I always said that I don't care about what was on people's mind.But I lied.I gave a fuck to all that stuff,actually.

Do you think I can stand it when people staring at me like they want to eat me? Do you think I can hold it when people whispering to each other when I passed by in front of them? Do you think it's fun kissing their asses? Lowering my ego just to please them? Wasting my time just put a little smile on their faces?

Let me ask you more.Should I apologize towards all of the things that weren't my mistakes? Should I let people stepped over my head? Should I fake a smile when someone hurt my feelings really bad? Should I consider their hearts first and mine second? Should I continue to be the one who keep doing the first move? Should I listen to what people want me to do?

Can you believe that all of my answers to the questions above are NO?

Yes,I should stop thinking about people and live my own life with my own fucking way.When you are totally nobody,please don't act like you are somebody.I've had enough time of swallowing and I feel like I'm going to throwing it all out sometimes.To everyone out there who have been throwing their shits all over me before,

kau tak payah nak main game budak-budak dengan aku,sebab aku tak banyak masa nak deal dengan manusia-manusia macam kau.

There's a limitation in everything.Your stupidity reflected itself once you crossed the line because patience is not something that will always be there inside of me.Please don't underestimate me because I am more than what you think I am.

When you're trying so hard to bring me down,I am so proud of myself.Why? Because it is obvious that I am above you.

When stupid fuck people like you hate me before they get to know me,that's the moment I realized I am the best.Why? Because people only hate the person they can't have and the person they can't be.

PLAYFUL WIND AND BEAUTIFUL RAINBOW

2011-06-05T17:20:00.000-07:00

Finally,I have met someone special in my life.Through all these times,right in front of my eyes,I wish I realized it sooner but it won't change anything,though.Now,I really believe good things always waiting for the one who keeps waiting.

I knew Rainbow since last semester.We were in the same campus but she was from Business Study course.She's simple.She's adorable.She's underdog.She's too pretty to look at.She's not the type of girl who wore make up like 3 inches thick.She's not wearing Kesha's outfit.She's like the girl-next-door.She's got everything that I really wanted from a girl.

I can see my future with her.We're both just really want to go to a stage called serious relationship.We're sick of playing games.We're searching for wishful thinking and absolutely not mindless dreaming.This is what I was looking for since a couple years ago,a small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.

Everything is happening in sudden but I'm not going to sit there and do nothing.Damn ypu Rainbow,I never thought I love you so much.If our chapter turns into another story,I will be so upset and...

STOP TORTURING,HURTING LIVING THINGS!

2011-05-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

One of my friend have created a page called Stop Torturing,Hurting Living Things.At first,I thought it was a spam page or something like that.You know,there are so many people out there who are so desperate for having their own Facebook fanpage,right? But I was clearly mistaken,the page contains messages and encouragements to stop violence against living things.

Just because we are human,it doesn't mean that we can do anything to other living things.You want me to give you examples? I'm tired of seeing people being cruel to animal seriously.If you're looking for an enjoyment,that is not the way.Stop being inconsiderate,bastard! Why do you need to do that?

Put a goldfish inside a blender and turn on the switch.
Step onto a kitten's head by wearing high heels until its head turned into like something got eaten by zombies.
Kill a kitten by umbrella in front of CCTV.
Throw a rabbit to the wall until the rabbit itself make up sound.You know rabbit doesn't make any sound at all,right? Unless,if it feels very hurt.

In case of that reason,I kind of salute the creator of the page.To be frank,I was literally amazed by her sensitivity towards violence against living things.Besides,I am a huge fan of Animal Planet! I love all of my cats so much! Only death going to seperate me from my Tommy,Tommy Jr.,G-Dragon,Komodo and Patamon!

This is me and G-Dragon!

AGAINST THE VIOLENCE TOWARDS YOUNG GIRLS.

2011-05-26T09:51:00.000-07:00

Hello friends.

First of all,I just want to tell you that I'm not in a good mood.Why? Okay,I just viewed several heartless videos made by teenagers of our beloved country.I was a little bit shocked! Who doesn't? To see young girls bullying and fighting,then posting videos on YouTube makes you wonder how could they did such things.

This is bullshit.Completely bullshit.This have been in Chinese newspaper headlines like more than 10 times I guess.That's mean it was a really big issue.It's really saddening to watch the bullied girl.She was crying like a cow but no one lend even a hand for help? Besides,they were also cut her hair off! How it feels like,when someone punch and slap you in the face,then they cut your hair off? I wish I could send the bullied girl to WWE for training,so she could just Powerbomb those sluts!

This is asshole.Alright,I got it if the girl was caught stealing but that doesn't mean they can kick her head over and over again.Head is the most sensitive part of human physical,just kick her ass would be enough.Please act nicely lah girls,she's one of your kind also what.

This is normal.You know what I mean right? Bitchfighting afterschool is used to be something common in my school back then.But,they should know that violence ain't going to solve anything,it is only adding continuing elements of dissatisfaction towards each others.I wonder if fighting is still relevant since girls were trying so hard to be like Blair Waldorf on Gossip Girl nowadays.Ohh,those bitches didn't watch tv! They were busy having sex with their boyfriends on motorcycles!

Where is your sense of humanity? What is your right to hurt other people? Where did you learned all this from? Have your mother teaches you nothing? Did your father fed you with dog's shit? Imagine if someone would do the same thing to you,and that time please don't ever ask why!

I wish I could prevent all this from happened.Please somebody,make it stop.It's not cool okay! I know it is not my problem but aren't you guys own a heart? I was so worried to see youngsters these days since I have two sisters who are still high school.Try to touch them,if you want my feet get down to your throat!

THE 100 THINGS I WANT IT HAPPEN

2011-05-25T07:38:00.000-07:00

Life is only once.Life without dream is like no air around.First,you're breathless.Then,you're chocked.After that,you're lost your vision and die.Don't be afraid to wish something,who cares if it's irrelevant and nonsense,or it doesn't make any fucking sense at all.

Actually,all you've got to do is find your guts to make yourself dare to dream! I made the 100 things post on 2009,about two years ago.It was my so-called wishlist entry,or something I've aimed for.Therefore,what are the things that already happened since then?

Okay,the bold one is happened.

Get school done.
Find a bestfriend.
Sleep.
Go to bed earlier.
Move on.
Pray harder.
Be a skinny guy.
Lose 20 pounds.
Get taller.
Grateful.
Eat more vegetables.
Less f-words.
Less envy.
Meet Kate Moss.
Meet Johnny Depp and hug him.
Strong.
Listen.
Study.
Recycle.
Get at least C for my Maths
Pass my Add Maths.
Get a driving license.
Get my own car.
Kiss my girlfriend.I hope I have one.
Meet new people everyday.
Healthy lifestyle.
Stop smoking.
No alcohol.
No drug.
Free-pimples
Learn guitar.
Learn piano.
Have my own MySpace Music.
Talk to old friend.
Play Pokemon on a Gameboy.
Get a braces.
Get an Action Sampler.
Get a Fish-Eye.
Get a Nikon D80.
A pair of sneaker.
Mother nature.
Plant a tree.
Against gays and lesbians.
Hyper-imaginative.
Go to college.
Go to law school.
Visit Japan.
Visit Israel.
Learn Japanese.
Learn Hebrew.
Live in Sweden.
Married and have 7 kids.
Honeymoon in Virginia or New Jersey.
Touch a polar bear or the grizzly one.
Posses self confidence.
Let bygones be bygones.
Forgive.
Repent.
Back to the past.
Go to Digimon's world.
Speak English fluently.
Have my own YouTube channel.
Have my own Flickr.
Learn Photoshop.
Travel and take photos.
Send my parents to Haji.
Silent.When my mom is shout madly at me.
Be a constant Liverpool fans.
Go to hell Barcelona fans.You're a loser.
Less online.
Have a good studygroup.
Take a painting class.
Study business.
Be a good lawyer.
Learn haircutting and hairstyling.
Part-time job at Starbucks.
Or maybe Baskin Robbins.
I want Ben & Jerry.
Own a pool.
Laugh a lot.
Fuck off poseur.
Kill all the Jews.
Support Arabs.
Less fake.
Less day-dreaming.
Buy dozens of t-shirt.
Of course,a lot of jeans.
A shoulder to cry on.
Fillet o' fish everyday.
Don't cut my hair!
Have a pet goldfish.A couple would be better.
A Gameboy SP.
A Nintendo DS.
Write a book and have it published.
Write a drama.
Spent whole day reading at Kinokuniya.
Broadcasting.
I love Malaysia.
Be a better man.
Be truth to what I say.

OHHH HAPPY DAYYY!

2011-05-24T13:19:00.000-07:00

I am so happy right now.It's true that my result,as you can see above is not something that will amaze everyone but I didn't expect my result going to be like this since I screwed most of my papers during final examination.I thought I will get not more than 2.5 or something like that but I managed to get beyond.

I'm so thankful to Allah.Even if my pointer drops,I don't give a damn much about it.Well,life is not going to treat you well all the time,right? Sometimes,you must know how it feels like to be in bottom if you want to go to the top.

This is just a beginning.There are three semesters more need to be settled down.Past is past and there's nothing we can do about it,future ahead is more crucial.Next semester,I will work my ass off to get back my long lost Deen List! I want it so bad right now,I promise you a comeback,the huge one!

p/s : Do you want to know why I'm in a good mood? Yes,I passed JPJ driving test,I'm so going to get my license by next week.Seriously,some of 'them' need to learn manners.

GIVE ME SOMETHING SWEET,THEN I'LL HUG YOU.

2011-05-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

My mother always told me that we must forgive someone if they done something really bad to you.Sometimes,human did mistakes here and there.The bottom line is nobody's really close to any perfection materials for sure.

Now,I don't find forgiving is a hard thing to do.All you've got to do is close your eyes,suck your hatred up as you breath in and you'll be fine after that.When it comes to enemies,just forgive them because nothing annoys them so much actually.

But some people were really make me pissed off so bad.I'm not looking for any chances or opportunities to heal the relationship at all.I don't hate them,I'm just too shy to admit their presences in my life.Forgiveness is good but sometimes it is so much better if we just leave the glass broken rather than to hurt yourself putting it together again.

Forgive your enemy,but don't ever forget their names.-John F.Kennedy

I SMOKE,SHOULD I DIE?

2011-05-18T07:02:00.001-07:00

I don't see smoking as the way to commit suicide like certain people does.

I don't see any relevance when people started to create a gap between smoker and non-smoker.Some people just have to stop condemning and ditching others for thinking that smoking is therapeutic because it really works for some of them actually.Everyone has their own way to live their life.So,why have to express hatred and discriminate? You have to be well-informed that nobody's perfect physically and mentally.

I admit,I'm not ready yet to moving on into healthier lifestyle because I do think I lead one right now.Someday,if my girlfriend want to leave me only because I am a smoker,I just have to let her go.I don't see any solution if she's acting like a Queen in the early stage because I'm not the type of guy who was sent to this world to please a girl's ass.You don't have to love me if you understand me.

Some of you,especially girls might find this post is very insensitive and offensive but I'm stressing the element of an actual respect here.Smoked a cigarette and being labelled as a bad boy,I've had it enough.OMG,some people should just STFU and MYOB!

SQUIRTLE SQUAD SUPER SEXY STUFF!

2011-05-17T08:51:00.000-07:00

I have a serious obsession towards my childhood's favorite cartoon lately.During my semester break,I was playing Pokemon Leaf Green and I chose Squirtle as my starter Pokemon.He's so cool,I started to like him actually.He evolved into Wartortle already but that doesn't matter in this post.

If I love something,I just can't stop Googling more about them.Suddenly,I found an-everything-about-Squirtle website here,on Tumblr.I'm talking about the stuff,man! I can picture myself wearing the shoes,I might look so freaking awesome! Check out the limited edition of Squirtle shoes below!

Adorable and exclusive,right? I want it so bad but I don't know where to get it.My birthday is on this upcoming September,so can you get one for me?

FUTURE GIRLFRIEND,I KNOW SHE'S WAITING FOR ME THERE.

2011-05-15T12:14:00.000-07:00

After my love life turned out to be the shittiest thing ever,I was a little bit afraid.Yes,I'm afraid if history will repeat itself.Apparently,I don't want to go through the same pattern of sufferings all over again,I'm tired.It's sickening when in your mind,you're just about want to kill someone really bad.

I know it's better for me to move on,find other girls and making out some but I am not that type of guy seriously.Flirtations and sexual intercourses are so not my things.Well,all I can say is I might look like naive,but I'm just nice and stupid actually.

That's the bloody why I was so upset when the someone I loved turned out into something they said they would never be.All I need is honesty and you don't have to lie a thing about it because you might look like a shmuck when I found out the truth.

Grudge and revenge are wasteful acts.Every dog has its day but don't forget what goes around comes around.However,when it comes to this,all we need is patience,right?

Finally,I think I am completely ready for a new relationship! Never get such feeling before,I managed to free myself from my worstest nightmare! YEAY!

By the way,in case if you don't know,shmuck means dickhead in Hebrew.I learned it from The Nanny.

MY FAVORITE GLEE CLUB MEMBER!

2011-05-13T15:55:00.000-07:00

Firstly,I thought it was a stereotypical American teenage drama.You know,where you can see quaterback player dating prom queen,bitchfight,backstabbing and sex in the toilet scenes.I wonder why it became an instant sensation in United States since 2009.Then,I started to watch it and finally I've got the answer.Yes,it is phenomenal! It is nothing like The OC,One Tree Hill or The Secret Life of American Teenager.It is way more realistic.

Not just the songs,but the plot and storyline were told perfectly,in an exciting way! Okay,some of you might getting bored of the spotlight seeker like Will Shuester or motherfucking wicked Sue Sylvester or maybe an extremely annoying human being like Rachel Berry,but I'm pretty sure that Glee is more than that,right?

Starred by variety of characters might be Glee's strength.There are so many interesting people on Glee,right? They got diva Mercedes,wheelchair worrior Artie,sexy Santana,Sam which is the Angelina Jolie guy,gay Kurt and his Werblers gayfriends and so much more.If you ask me,which one is my favorite character,I would say....

She's not a main stars of the Glee obviously,she played only a small role but I really like her.She's sexy,beautiful and dropdead stupid.If you're watching,you might know how stupid she is.I love the Britney Spears episodes where Brittany got the spotlight as she sang all the Britney's top hit songs! She nailed it all,especially I'm A Slave 4 U.Besides,I don't know that she's freaking talented when it comes to dancing,she really can move and shake that thang!

I used to adore Quinn actually,it's just Brittany caught my eyes more.She kind of reminds me of Psyduck,you know who he is?

CAN YOU HEAR THE CALL?

2011-05-04T11:10:00.001-07:00

I heard it! The call is asking me to lose some weight and gain some muscles.

Exercise,I need to exercise! Working out might be the coolest routine to do for this moment since I have got nothing to do instead of sleeping.I'm going to do it on this entire holiday.I bet you,nothing is more serious than this!

The picture was taken last night.I'm fat enough,right?

GRAB THIS,IF YOU ARE FEELING AWESOME!

2011-05-04T06:45:00.000-07:00

I love semester break.I love a long period holiday,the longer the better! I discovered my unknown interests on every semester break.Last time,I was addicted to Dutch Lady Full Cream Milk.This time is the moment for Rocky.

I'm having a little serious addiction towards this stuff lately.I don't know what's wrong,but I think it tastes really good.I bought it every morning after I went to jogging.When I put it onto my mouth and slowly chew them,as I close my eyes,I can feel like I'm in an autumn day! So peaceful,lovely,yet too dramatic to describe.

It doesn't cost me much either,only RM1.70 at Pasar Mini Zak nearby.I prefer strawberry flavor actually,but chocolate is irresistible,we all know that,right?

JESSI J SHOULD KNOW IT BETTER!

2011-05-02T08:45:00.001-07:00

Holiday arrived finally,after a quite long and torturing examination week.I feel blessed.I don't know what to do and I like this kind of feeling.I'm starting to plan what kind of activities should I do.

Meeting old friends.
Playing poker until morning.
Learning how to be an expert on Dota.
Yeah.I'm going to finish Plant vs Zombie,and also Angry Bird.
Climbing up way on the top of Broga Hill,I wonder what's so great about it.
Go travelling somewhere.
Working out and get a body like Sam Evans!
Finding true love.Ridiculous.
Driving license.Oh,I haven't finished yet.
Working.

Number 10 is the most crucial.I need to find a job.I need to buy a new cellphone and a Nintendo DS.I'm going to find it tomorrow! Well,it's all about the money,money,money.Jessi J should know it better.

I'M SORRY GRINCH,I HAVE TO DO THIS!

2011-04-30T15:27:00.000-07:00

Even there's no expression at all,yet illusion really works for me.I'm too stubborn to forget everything about you.You gave me feelings that people write novels about.A million of feelings,a thousand of thoughts,hundreds of memories,all from one person.

I laughed a lot because of you.I cried a lot because of you.I believe in this love because of you.I lose everything because of you.I wish I never fell for you because now I wouldn't be going through all this pain.Should I blame you for this?

I hate to see you with someone else.But,its your life and I don't want to be such disturbance in your relationship.To force an avoidance might be the best solution for both of us.It's really pathetic how I keep trying to hold on to something's that not coming back.I now free you from my mind.It's not that I'm giving up on you,it's just that I am strong enough to let you go.

You will know that you love someone when you want them to be happy.Even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.

Someday you'll love me,but I won't love you.Take a good care of yourself,Grinch.

Moral : Don't waste your time with the wrong people.Who only want you in their life when they need something from you.

HATRED

2011-04-28T15:49:00.000-07:00

Hatred.How do you handle it? I know there will be variety answers,as people might be handling with different styles because hatred is a subjective matter itself.

I know some people out there who really dislike me.I have no likeable factors for sure.It's not that I am fucking bad,no one likes me.It's just I don't know how to make myself available to be typically liked by others.I'm not a movie-star handsome,neither filthy rich and totally not a Harvard genius.

Yes,I would like to believe that people are going to judge you by those aspects first,the external sides.Then,the reallity which is your internal sides comes in second.Some might say that I am...

Fucking snob.
Fucking snob.
Fucking snob.

Me? A snob? You are clearly mistaken but I am sorry if I ever made you feel that way.I didn't mean it.Come to Papa,let me kiss your ass.I promise I won't do it again,is that okay? There are too much asses I need to kiss,give me some time.Now I understand that first impression goes a long way.

If people are going to hate you,just let them.It's not worth to hate them back because they're so nobody.Don't waste your time thinking about them.Both presence and absence,whether live and die,I don't give a shit towards those motherfuckers for God sake.

This is life.This is how nature works.No matter how hard you try,you are unable to satisfy everyone easily.

THE ROAD TO SUCCESS : UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2011-04-27T12:50:00.000-07:00

I don't know what the hell is going wrong with me.I screwed my paper again today,for the third times! It's funny,the paper is used to be my favorite subject,but everything went out of their tracks.I swear.When I finished,I saw all people were like,

"Nasib baik paper tadi senang,harap-harap lah dapat A!"

It was a three hour-durated paper but some of them just took not more than one hour to make it done! While I was sitting there,alone like a dog.I feel like I'm in a hell right now.I couldn't escape from it.This is the time where I would ask the world,where the hell is time machine?

Stayed up at night until morning,memorized it all until I felt like I'm going to throw out something slushy from my fucking stomach and still unable to do it well.I have no reasons for not to be angry with myself.Reading and memorizing are easy for me back then but I seem have lost the magic.

If I used to hope for getting an A before,now it seems like I have to hope for not repeating the same paper next semester.Yes,I don't think I'm going to maintain my pointer for this semester.You know,in university,is all about pointer,right.I'm not ready to tolerate with those judgement which is going to be appear soon.Final is killing me,it owned me this time.I'm half dead.

I'm so upset right now,completely upset.

A LETTER TO AN EX-BESTFRIEND

2011-04-25T16:57:00.001-07:00

Dude,

You are the one who asked for this,making me feel like I am a devil in front of others.But it's okay,I'm alright.I have been by your side through all these years,believing you,defending you,and this is what I got? Whatever you trying to put on,she and they are still in front of my door,not yours.I see no solution in our problems.Heck,I don't even seek for one.If you think you have an ego,please remember that I have it one too.

It's funny when I thought to myself,that we used to act like our friendship is like going to be last for an eternity.I was clearly mistaken.What a foolish side of me! Stop blaming others for leaving you because it is not their faults.Reasons are in front of your eyes,dude.How long does it going to take you to realize that? Take a look at yourself.Figure out who you really are.

Anyway,thanks for everything.The joy,the laugh,and all the great moments we shared together before.I'm not mad at you,but I'm just dissapointed you turned into everything you said you would never be.

Be a man dude,because you never act like one.

WHEN IT COMES TO LUCK,WORDS CAN'T TELL

2011-04-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

I might not staying in a super massive mansion in Bangsar or Damansara.I might not riding a jawdropping car like Mazda 2 or Audi A4.I might not using Blackberry or iPhone.I might not wearing clothes from Topman.I might not playing Xbox or Playstation 3.I might don't have my Europe vacation pictures posted on my Facebook.I might don't have most of the things that I want.

I'm a human and I'm not perfect.Sometimes,I was tempted by luxurious lifestyle reflected by other human.It's hard when you thought to yourself,that you have to work extraordinary hard to get what you want,while some other people just sitting there doing absolutely nothing,and they already got everything they wished for.

No,I don't blame anyone.There are plenty of reasons to be happy.I'm grateful that I was sent to this world by this way,where I need to find my ability and strength all by myself.If you think your life is adventurous,so am I.

Yes,I was born to survive.

I DON'T WANNA PROCRASTINATE,BUT I WAS BORN TIMEWASTER

2011-04-12T22:37:00.001-07:00

Final examination is coming up next week.

I'm not going back home during the study week.It's only four days.So,I better do some revision and preparation for my examination.At this stage,I really do not care about eating what,going home when or hangout with whom.All I care is I want to score my papers.I'm totally afraid if my pointer will not going to maintain.

Well,the bigger you are,so as the problems you may face.Yes,my second semester is quite tough.Sometimes,I felt just I want to take a sleep for all month,hoping it ends as soon as possible.Whatever.I called my mother last night.I said,

"Emak,jangan marah tau kalau pointer jatuh.Sem ni macam susah sikit lah.Tolong doa-doakan ya."

My mother replied.As usual,she said,

"Alahh,mak tak kisah pun pointer-pointer tu.Yang penting,belajar.Insyaallah boleh buat.Lepas tu,jangan tinggal solat."

Whenever I stressed,I love to remember what my mother said.The sayings was curable,it totally worked since last semester.It was like,a spirit booster injection! She's being supportive in her own way.Sorry to say but my mother is fucking sweet! Damn,how lucky I am!

Kononnya tengah study...

I'm going to do the best,for sure! Bring it on,let the battle begins! Hahahaha!

DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THE ARRIVAL?

2011-04-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

I'm not in a well condition,damn,I'm suffering a terrible fever.I miss my mother.Please wish me get well soon because I have three tests and one final paper on this upcoming week.Enough.

I just finished watching The Arrival.You know what is that,don't you? A series of short videos which reveal on the agenda and propaganda planned by those who called themselves Satanic worshiper,Anti-Christ,Freemasonry or Illuminati.

It contains 50 episodes altogether,each one of them durated only 10 minutes.Every single episode never fails to impress me.I obtained tons of meaningful truths from it.Yes,I am about believe all of them.Everything happened got its own hidden messages.Purpose? Intention? I have no idea,go watch the video by yourself,buddy.I'm sure you won't regret it.

I was like a puppet.I was controlled.I have been told to believe this and deny that.I never knew that a pyramid is more than just a weird boxy structure.I never knew that Pharaoh's family married to themselves to ensure an actual royal family.I never knew that one eye signifies something really bad.I never knew that there are tons of pop songs were worshiping the Lucifer.I never knew what's behind the 9/11 tragedy.I never knew Princess Diana died on conspiracy.I thought UFO was really exists.Dinosaurs? Lady Gaga? Checkered floor? Star? Pentagon? Double cross? Statue of Liberty? Crows? Black dog? I never knew this,and that.So many things!

They were playing on us.They were controlling and manipulating our mind.I can feel the world is about to reach its end.Peace is just a word which people create,it doesn't exists in real life.The signs were everywhere,it's up to us whether we realize about it or not.See,the world is not all about you.You are nothing,if you don't have a guts to be something.

Allah,please wake me up.I have been sleeping for a long time.

SWEAT WILL DRY SOON

2011-04-02T12:59:00.000-07:00

Only a month left,and then I will finish my second semester.I didn't realize time flies this fast.

I am extremely busy with tests and assignments right now.Done one thing,the other one come,it doesn't shows any sign to stop actually.Damn,I have tests on this upcoming Monday and Tuesday,two assignments need to be submitted on Wednesday,and final debate on Thursday.

So,it's going to be a very busy week for me.It's far from the truth if I say all of these things are not torturing,it does! Well,at least,it does to everyone.

It's good to know that I am not facing all of the difficulties all by myself because helping hands are everywhere.How sweet people can be,should I hug all of my friends right now? Maybe I should stop complaining,and start swallowing. Or maybe I should stay calm and smile?

I was thinking of working during this upcoming semester break.Somewhere around my place,maybe Starbucks? But I feel like I just want to sleep,hang out and play Gameboy all the time,just like what I did on last semester break.I really had a blast that time!

RECOGNIZE THIS PIG?

2011-04-01T13:16:00.000-07:00

I miss my old times.Especially when I was at 7,or 8,or maybe 9 years old.Back to the moment,where I was addicted and obsessed with Digimon.I still remember watching them at 10am every Sunday.I even cried when I missed an episode of it.Did you watch them?

I am so happy right now.I already downloaded the entire first season of Digimon in my laptop.Come,come,let's watch together!

If you ask me,what is my favorite Digimon? I would say Patamon,because he is the coolest Digimon ever! He is dropdead weak when he is Patamon,but when he evolved,everything's change.Patamon holds the phrase of expect the unexpected.

Patamon,you are weak! You know your attack is not going to affect much.I mean,Air Beam? I could just kick your ass,PIG! Don't be mad,just kidding,you know I love you,right pig?

Angemon,why are you so cool? How can a pig evolved into an angel? It doesn't make any sense.Wait,oh yes,that's why we called it cartoon.

I once named my cat Patamon,but he's dead now.It's up to you,whether you want to call me childish or immature.Sorry,it's just me.Digimon is a matter,which is going to be last forever in my heart and soul.

UNLIKE YOUR 32 SIBLINGS ON FACEBOOK,I HAVE ONLY 3

2011-03-26T10:06:00.000-07:00

32? Your mother is a rabbit,or she's really good at making sex? Ooppsss!

In case of mine,I have three siblings and I am the eldest.Yes,I am the first child of my family.I know some of you might think that I was the last one,I don't know why.Do I really look like a spoiled kid? I have two sisters.Little sisters for sure.They hold different personalities inside,which make them love to fight against each other frequently.

I called her Esya.She will turn 16 soon.She looks like 16,but never act one.Madly in love with everything about Korea,wtf,she's sick.I admit,sometimes we danced to K-pop songs together.Funny.Weird.Loves to make up.Fake eyelashes.She dressed up like a wild child,but my mother seems pretty hard to let her go out.Pathetic,right?

She's 12 but I think she's trying to hard to be 21.She's a little bit more mature than her sister.Obsessed with Taylor Swift and Jonas Brothers.Nothing is more relaxing than watching Nickelodeon channel.Loves to eat,especially cheese.Skinny.Taller than me.

It's true that I am their brother,but seriously I never act like a brother.I am their greatest boy-friend who loves to do slumber party along night together.I am such a sweet gay as I am always watching Gossip Girl with them.What a homosexual lifestyle,right? Hahahaha!

I'm so proud of you guys.Still young but already went through a lot,right? Be strong,because every dog has its day,our day will coming soon.You've colored my life,it glows brighter than any rainbows in the world.I love you guys so much.I still want to be your brother,until the next time.

Please,take a good care of yourselves because I'm not going to be there by your side forever.

Sincerely,your brother.

A FACEBOOK CHAT BETWEEN EX COUPLE

2011-03-25T09:23:00.000-07:00

Girl : Hey boy.

Boy : Hey :)

Girl : How are you doing?

*Boy types : I'm miserable! I need you! I miss you! I LOVE YOU! Then,erased it and..*

Boy : I'm fine.

That is so true.I thought to myself,why it is hard for me to just erase you completely from my life,as easy as you erased me? I regret giving you my love,I regret getting attached to you,I regret holding your hands,I regret everything about what happened between me and you.

But that was then.Everything seems change now.Despite it all,I realized some bigger dreams of mine.Life is too short to be sad,to hold grudges,to blame fate and to regret past.Don't cry something a river,better you build a bridge and get over it.Close you eyes,and remind yourself that things happened for reasons.

I'm glad.I can tell you that I now lead a magnificent life,seriously.I used to be such an annoying egomaniac but not anymore now.Well,thank you because if it is not because of you,I couldn't be here feeling so proud of myself.

WHEN BOREDOM STRIKES DURING CLASSES,I WILL...

2011-03-20T02:25:00.000-07:00

I have a Record Management class,every Tuesday evening.It is two hours full of excitement,seriously.

The lecturer is a young and beautiful married woman.
She's charismatic and have an ability to eliminate any boredom aspects.
She's teaching with all of her heart and soul.

Lately,I was overwhelmed by uninvited exhaustion when it comes to her class.It's not that her class is boring,it's just me.I don't have any idea why.Tuesday seems turn into my so called unpleasant day,I felt lazy and sleepy on that day,especially on the evening.

In order to escape myself from being labelled for any disrespectful behavior,such as sleeping in the class,I took a piece of paper,borrow some colorful pens from a friend of mine and draw mind maps of other subjects.

It's a piece of crap but no one can judge.Yes,I love arts.

READY,SET,GO!

2011-03-18T10:16:00.000-07:00

When you thought to yourself that you should earn a better life,things somehow turn into another side of an actual events.What an ironic twist of fate.It is painful,right?

It happens to me all the time.Things always went far from my predictions,way beyond my expectations.I am already immune when it comes to it.Well,that's the real definition of life.You'll never know what will happen to you.

All good things seem come to an end before they play.I cure myself by let it go.I don't see any relevance if we're crying a river for it,better we build a bridge to get over it.You know,sometimes giving up doesn't mean that you're weak,it means that you're strong enough to let it go.

The capital HOPE is a phrase which I implemented inside of me but I'm sick of hoping for something beyond my reach.I better live my current life,with all the joy.Future ahead,it's all about take it or leave it.

BRAINLESS CREATURE,SORRY

2011-03-13T19:42:00.000-07:00

I don't get it.Why some people are so brainless? There are some of them who making fun of Japan when the country get hit my massive Tsunami past few days by posting stupid statuses on their Facebook and Twitter.Let me ask you one question,where's your sensitivity?

An obvious example would be

Seriously dude,you are annoying.People are dead here and there.You just sitting there in front of your laptop,claiming that you're just joking? Let me slap your mother,don't get mad,because I just want to make a joke.

If you guys think it is so hard to pray,just shut the fuck up.There's no need to joking around,it's not funny at all.You will feel sorry for yourself someday and that time you've been wondering where's Cicakman? Where's Bio-nik? Where's Kaber Hero Kaber Zero?

It's a shame to Malaysia,having such motherfuckers as citizens.

IRREPLACEABLE

2011-03-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

I spent a lot of times with those two guys,Fakhri and Aniq these weekend.I knew them since I was in Form 1,didn't realize we are 19 now.Since all of us were a bunch of grown up and extremely busy with our own stuffs,it is pretty hard to meet each other.

Finally,I managed to meet them in HR Steakhouse,Kg.Baru.I really had a blast with them.They freshen up all of the memories in high school.Some of them were fucking hilarious,we laughed like a maniac until morning.

All time favorite,Fish and Chip! Damn,that mayo looks like sperms.

Si Jawo dan Si Minang,I love you!

Diorang cakap muka aku macam 'taiko',betul ke? Hahaha.

I'm glad to knew them.I'm glad to see them growing up perfectly.I'm glad our friendship still remains the same,eventhough we were all apart.Friendship won't lasts,it never ends.Damn,I sound like a Spice Girl here.

p/s : 300? Thank you,people! God bless you!

THE ULTIMATE EXAGGERATING MISSION

2011-03-06T19:07:00.000-08:00

I want to talk about something,which is take place here in Segamat.There is a group,I don't know what it is called,but all of the members have perfect manly body for real! I repeat,this is real!

At first,I just heard people praising their muscular bodies.I thought to myself,who gives a shit? But when I met them in front of my fucking eyes,I finally knew what people talking about.They got bodies to die for,big chest,small waist,six packs,biceps,triceps and all you can imagine what's there on Taylor Lautner's body.

Then,I saw my friends,especially Farn and Syed who suddenly got a hint to work their bodies.They started to workout like seriously,I saw them doing that every single time I went to their room.Besides,the were also consuming protein milkshake,it tastes like crap! Thanks to them,I was influenced by their so called healthy routine and I am doing what they are doing now!

In a couple of months,I will get what I have been dreaming of.I will get Bruce Lee's body in a natural way of mine,absolutely without any drugs,protein milkshakes or energy boosters!

To those who are not believe in me,voice out about it on my Facebook wall because I will tag you in my muscular abs photos.I'm surely going to shut your fucking mouth!

TYPICAL BOY WITH AN IDEAL GIRL

2011-03-05T02:00:00.000-08:00

I once said that Kate Moss is beautiful and all of my friends were like,where's her breast,man? Some of them were saying that Kim Kardashian is beautiful,then how come I didn't feel the same? Having two watermelons on your chest is not beautiful! Then,we started to argue about this unsolved topic.

Different people came up with different answer because beauty is a subjective matter.As for me,a normal guy,also have my own standards and requirements before describe the real definition of beauty.Therefore,in this very post,I'm going to state those external characteristics that influence my attractiveness level towards women.

1. Long wavy hair.

Bayangkanlah sewaktu dia berjalan-jalan di pantai,rambutnya ditiup oleh angin yang datang.Kemudian,dia membetul-betulkan rambutnya semula.Sangat seksi.

2.Smiling eyes.

Bila dia senyum,matanya juga akan ikut senyum.Oh,saya sangat suka perempuan yang tidak memakai kanta lekap.Nampak sangat natural dan innocent.

3.Weird teeth structure.

Saya suka perempuan yang susunan giginya agak pelik.Bukanlah jongang atau rongak,tetapi entahlah,saya pun tidak tahu bagaimana nak cerita.

4.Skinny body but not walking skeleton.

Saya suka perempuan yang kurus.Semestinya lebih kurus dari saya supaya boleh main dukung-dukung di tepi pantai.Selain itu,saya juga tidak begitu kisah sama ada dia bertetek besar atau kecil.Tetapi yang penting,ada tetek.

5.Awesome fashion sense.

Dah nama pun perempuan,takkan lah selekeh je memanjang kan.Saya suka perempuan yang pandai bergaya,dalam masa yang saya,terpancar sifat kesederhanaannya.

Five would be enough because I am starting to talk nonsense if I write more than that.Well,I put Cassi Van Den Dungen, the second runner up of Australian Next Top Model 5 pictures on the top because she's the one who I think would be an ideal selection for the term beauty.

If you ask me,what is beauty? My answer would be,the person who turns imperfection into perfection.

DISEASE!

2011-03-03T19:37:00.000-08:00

I didn't sleep for two days since Tuesday.Three fucking assignments need to be submitted yesterday.Finally,I managed to submit them on time! I was so happy,I slept like a dead monkey last night! It was a payback time!

This is what I practiced since last semester,drank a lot of Nescafe until my eyes turned red.Then,I felt so energetic to get my assignments done! After submitted them,I took a long nap,a very longggggggggggggggggg nap.It was like,243 episodes of dreams inside.

Life in university is so much fun,yet so much stress.You finished one thing,then the other thing came.It doesn't shows any signs to stop.I bet you know that,didn't you?

THE PHASE OF OUR CURRENT LIFE

2011-02-27T19:09:00.000-08:00

You hit your little toe against a table.

At age 7 : Ohhhh oww!

At age 10 : Ahhhh bodoh tau meja ni

At age 13 : Babi,sakit sial kaki aku

At age 17 : Fuck! Celaka bedebah lahanat punya meja!

Day by day,our life is getting more dramatic,don't you think? Sometimes,tiny little problem seems extraordinary huge in our eyes,while it is still tiny for other people.Time flies.Age is not something we can control.But what we do in age is entirely in our hands.Age is more than years,because it is also matter of feeling.

Human born with different capabilities,and only time will give the answers to that.As long you know yourself better,you don't have to worry because everything is going to be fine,right?

REASONS WHY SUSHI TASTES BETTER THAN CHEESEBURGER!

2011-02-25T11:27:00.000-08:00

I have one assignment,which I think I'm really looking forward to.The subject is IMD 152,also known as Introduction To Internet Access.My dear lecturer,Miss Ila told us to do some kind of website research.There are 13 different types of websites in this world,we have to pick one,specify our selection and write about it!

Sounds fun,isn't it?

I chose blog.I don't know why,but blog suddenly popped out in my mind that time.Who's that lucky blogger who I will write about? I have made up my decision,and the blog title is diloz o'blog de.Recognize it? If not,you better click the link,fucking now!

I'm not quite sure about his name,since he's using a nickname on his Facebook.He's a Malay.He's from Malaysia.The coolest part is he went to study in Gunma Universty,Japan.There are several things more I like about his blog,his writings were usually fun to read and he also made photo editing tutorial,besides sharing his interest towards cameras.He posted so many pictures of the place where he went in Japan.

I always want to further my study there,I want to experienced everything about Japan.The beautiful scenery,peaceful environment,and as well as robotic lifestyle.I want to taste the real sushi,not Sushi King or Sakae Sushi anymore.I want to know what it feels there when Autumn arrives,the pink flowers fall endlessly in a windy day.I want to go to streets where people dressed themselves exactly like anime characters.Come on,everyone wants to go there because they know what's there in Japan,so I don't have to list everything nice about it,right?

I'm not scare if I won't be able to further my study there,for sure that's a long period.But I will fly there,someday.Dare to dream is what I'm trying to implement to myself.I'm sorry if I look overreact,blame it to my extra excitement for overwhelming me.Maybe I watch too many animes these days.

Damn,this Aragaki Yui's picture really cools me down!

DO YOU EVER REGRET? IF YES,THEN YOU ARE PUSSY!

2011-02-16T02:55:00.000-08:00

Regret are for pussies.Shit happens,deal with it!

Regrets are really meant for pussies? First of all,I'm not trying to be a bimbo who used to misinterpret something so easily,nor a moron who find it extraordinary hard to understand simple quotes.

Regret,something which is situated inside of me.To escape from it is just a dream.To get rid of it is impossible.It signifies weakness.It symbolizes hopelessness.A billion question marks stuck inside the head.Regret is a colossal devastation inside out of a human.Regret resembles nothing but negativity.Regret is the killer!

Sometimes,I hope I can turn back the time,because a little change can make everything back on the track where it supposed to be.But my life is precious,so as my past.Go to the past and make a change wont simplify anything.It just make things go worst.Go watch The Butterfly Effect now,in case if you don't believe me.It is a movie,but I think the message is undeniable.God already have a perfect storyline for each and everyone of us,He knows better than we do.

Don't be scare to regret something! It maybe the most painful feeling ever but no one is perfect.We are human,we did some mistakes here and there.Therefore,I have reached my conclusion here,that regrets aren't for pussies! It acts like a platform for us to figure out the best of our lives.It makes us one step closer to get to know ourself better.It shows that we are still have compassionate values inside of us towards ourself and everyone else.

But still,I have to admit something,

I don't regret my past,I just regret the time I've wasted with the wrong people!

THERE'S NO SUCH THINGS LIKE 'TEENAGE DREAM'

2011-02-11T05:43:00.000-08:00

"Ya Allah,tolonglah bagi satu girlfriend untuk aku,tolonglah."

I made this wish,every single night before I went to sleep.It is funny when I thought to myself about how desperate I was a couple years ago.See,wasn't that pathetic? I can even see myself on Desperate Housewives!

I used to think that having a girlfriend is a must for a guy because it shows there is someone who can actually see your hero qualities,eventhough everyone knows that you are zero.It is such a beautiful thing when you know that you're a cracked egg but someone make you feel like the golden one.It was a kind of feeling that I never felt.Besides,I was a teenager,which means,I was on the phase of massive immobilization by curiousity.

But,that was back then.Now,I really enjoy myself being single.If people are saying that I'm lack of love,they are totally wrong! I already have enough lovers in my life so far,my family,my friends and my cats! I know they love me.

I don't want to be fooled again by those fairy-tales or movie-made acts,which is doesn't even exists! I would be extremely stupid for not realizing all this,because obviously life is more than that.Life is more than just holding hands,kiss on the neck,and having sex! Then,got pregnant and die! Love is like the slowest term of suicide,and I'm too young to die.

I'm just 19.I still gotta long way to go.There are so many things await for me.I need to focus more on myself,I need to find my undiscovered strength,abilities and talents.Moreover,I just watched V For Vandetta last night and for goddamn shit,it really taught me something.

FUCKING REAL BLOODSUCKER

2011-02-05T07:23:00.001-08:00

I was watching Van Helsing last night,and it was epic! I already watched it,maybe nearly six years ago since the movie came out on 2004.The final battle between vampire and warewolf was magnificent.It was nothing like slow motion battle Edward Cullen vs Jacob Black on Twilight Saga<--that was a piece of shit.

Now,I get it,why people were suffering a nonsense disease such "vampire fever".If I could be one of them,most probably I would pick,okay maybe vampire.Let me tell you why.

First of all,vampires seem to have a hyper fangs,especially when they were about to suck their prey's blood.If you notice,they lengthens their fangs when they get angry.It's not that warewolves don't have fangs,but I just think that vampires are way more cooler with it.

Second,they have wings,so they can fly! We all don't know how it feels when we are flying but just admit it,who doesn't want to have a pair of wings like an angel? Who doesn't want to fly way up to the sky?

Third,they are charming.I think they have lyrical souls,or maybe they were literature lovers.All of them were so romantic! Have you watch Interview With The Vampire,or maybe The Vampire Diaries? I love it when they were normal like other people,but they turned into creepy fugly monster when they were intimidated.

I love mostly vampire movies,and again,Twilight is the only exception.

MEEOOOWWW!!!

2011-01-29T23:38:00.001-08:00

In case if you don't know,Jenny already have four babies! They were completely healthy,but still naughty like their mother used to be.I didn't give names to all of them yet,but I'm pretty sure my sisters will take that part.

Time flies pretty fast,I still remember when I first met Jenny,she was small just like her kids.Tommy is also pregnant,she looks like a really huge hairball right now.So many cats already,what to do?Actually,they are currently open for adoption,anyone? Take a look at this!

AGAINST THE ACNE

2011-01-28T12:48:00.000-08:00

I have been struggling about this issue since I was a kid.Acne has always been a problem for me since I was 12 and I'm almost 20 right now.It doesn't shows any sign to stop.

Back to the past,I always wanted a perfect flawless skin,no scars,blemish free and smooth like a tomato.Who doesn't love perfection,right? I thought I could be so much handsome just like a Korean movie star without those acnes.I have tried so many products such as Clearasil,Oxy and Neutrogena,none of them works! I was so jealous to see people who got perfect skin without trying too hard for it.They must have good genetics.

Honestly,now I don't care about it anymore.As for mine,my skin is absolutely fine for me.I have acnes here and there,what's up with that? I strongly feel that if someone won't like you just because of your skin then well,they are superficial and not worth your time.You are special so don't let your skin bother you.

Being stressed about acne isn't going to solve anything for you.It's weird to see some people just can't stop complaining about their red tiny acne on their forehead.Wake up,there's a woman who just got infected by HIV in Africa!

LOVESTRUCK

2011-01-27T19:06:00.000-08:00

I have no idea why I watched too many romantic movies.

I was more into action,or maybe humorous type of movies before but things were completely different nowadays.Damn,I used to be a fan of Jack Black okay! I am no longer watching those kind of genre,maybe because I'm hunting for something which is more,maybe soulful?

I watched The Notebook last night and it was epic! I really adore movies which made from the adaptation of the novel such as A Walk To Remember, Dear John,The Time Traveler's Wife,The Lovely Bones and you know what I'm talking about,right?

I watched all of them more than a time,especially if the author was Nicholas Sparks because he creates such a powerful love story.Besides,the lines were also deep and meaningful.I searched about him on Wikipedia,and most of his books based on true stories which happened to him.What a dramatic life,now I believe he was born to do this.I'm going to watch The Last Song tonight,care to join,anyone?

Not forget to mention,I like almost novel-based movies but Twilight is the only exception.

LUCKIER

2011-01-24T18:37:00.000-08:00

Damn,I regret about my previous post (click here) which I voiced out my frustrations towards Unit Pengurusan Kolej here because they were not giving me my last semester's room.I was overwhelmed by an extreme dissapointment that time.

Life's treat me so well lately.I met several new friends,they were cool.We talked,laughed and watched movies together a lot of times.It's weird to watch romantic movies back to back with a group of guys but I think I'm used to it these days.

Besides,I also met a bunch of new friends from Business course.I just knew them in not more than a day but we became very close right now.Tons of assignment need to be submitted as soon as possible but for some reasons,I think I need to calm myself down a little bit.Therefore,we went to Malacca about last Saturday.We played truth or dare,watch a movie,went to beaches,everything like you did with your lunatic friends!

I have learned something.We must not easily judge our own life because we never know what will happen to us in the future.Everything requires time.Every bad beginning will lead to blast ending.All I can say is thank God.He hears all of my wishes.I don't know why I post about this,maybe because I'm starting to like my life here.For the first time ever,I felt like I don't want to go back home every weekend,unlike last semester.

THE FUGLY TRUTH ABOUT BLOGGING

2011-01-20T18:12:00.000-08:00

DO YOU EVER START TYPING A POST AND BY THE END OF IT,YOU REALIZE NO ONE WOULD CARE SO YOU BACKSPACE AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE?

WORLD WOULD BE SO DIFFERENT WITHOUT YOU

2011-01-19T20:40:00.000-08:00

I'm not a big fan of latest gadgets in market.In fact,I don't even give a damn towards them.You know,all of them going to cost a lot of money and I'm broke.But I don't know why I don't envy people who use Blackberry,Sony Xperia,Nokia E71 and all that kind of latest design (fucking huge) of cellphone.Mine also not bad what...

I can call people.
I can text people.
I can listen to my favorite songs.
I can snap pictures also.
I can't online,but I'm not that lifeless lah kan batak sangat nak online everywhere.

I have been a user of my Sony W880i since two years ago.I call it,Sonia.I'm a weirdo,I gave names to all of my stuffs actually.Apparently,Sonia and I have went through a lot of harsh times together.Besides,she also fell hundreds of time but she still okay until now.See,how amazing she is?

I'm not saying my cellphone is the coolest stuff in this universe.Please,don't get me wrong because I'm just trying to say that I'm happy with what I have and of course I don't need to ask for more.I'm trying to be grateful of everything.All I know is as long as my cellphone able to functions well,I will keep my faith baby!

SICK.YES,I'M SICK!

2011-01-10T23:01:00.000-08:00

For the subject IMD 152,I got my last semester lecturer,who is the one and only Miss Ila.I'm so relieved that she's my lecturer,simply because she's the most fierce one.That will make me scare to death if I let her down! I believe in order to be good,one must be cruel!

On the last class,about last Wednesday,she told us how to lead a healthy lifestyle.Sleep early,don't smoke,don't do drug and stuff.I was like,okay.I already knew all that since I was a baby.Then,she said something,maybe sounds like this,

Awak semua ni kena lah minum air kosong banyak-banyak.Sebab tu la muka awak semua ni,pucat lesi,nampak tak bermaya macam orang sakit.Khalis,kurang air.

I was like,what? Hahaha.Motherfuck,I now realized that my face was very dry and pale.I looked extremely exhausted sometimes.It was just an external side of me,though.I am a healthy guy inside out actually,even if I don't look like one but I think it is important for us to keep our health balanced,both internally and externally.Damn,I really need to stuff myself with gallons of mineral water like,seriously.

We need at least eight glasses of water everyday in order to maintain our health.Past few days,I really turn into a mineral water monster! I drank nearly five 500ml of mineral water everyday until I thought that toilet was my most visited place ever! I have been there for about,something around 25 times!

But that's not a matter at all for me.Come on,I want to be healthy.I want my kidney functions well.I want my teeth strong enough to eat Kit-Kat when I was 89.I want to increase my metabolism rate.I want to eliminate toxins from my damn body.I want to stay young like Brad Pitt on The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.I want my wife,or maybe wives looks 20 years older than me.I want people call me handsome!

THE RECIPE OF YUMMY BREAST MILKY MILK

2011-01-08T10:08:00.000-08:00

I'm addicted to this stuff lately,since I was on my last semester break.Every morning,I went to mini market nearby and I never forget to bought it.Come on,how can I forgot something which was extremely creamy? Yum yum yum!

Damn,I don't even know why I really so into milky stuff nowadays.My mother said to me once that milk is good for our health.Therefore,I think it is better for me to buy Dutch Lady milk rather than a Coke.Do you know that a can of Coca-Cola equals to 15 tablespoons of sugar?

I want to share something with you guys! Want to know a masterpiece recipe for making something much more creamier than ever?

Dutch Lady Full Cream Milk + Winston Light = smile like there's no tomorrow!

I DON'T BELONG HERE

2011-01-06T09:06:00.001-08:00

I already got my room.

Last semester,I was in 2D's block.Where I met so many awesome people and also experienced tons of unexpected events.It was like a refreshing introduction to a new world.

This semester,I was placed in 2B's block and I'm not happy about it.What's up with this kind of joke? They threw me away just because of my pointer? First of all,I was wondering,why all of my friends got the exactly same room like previous semester? I'm so envious with them actually! They were still in 2D and there's nothing change for God sake!

Unlike me,who have to go through several stages in order to consider someone as my friend.They were so many juniors in my new block including all of my new roommates.I'm not labeling any negativity aspect to a word junior itself but I'm the type of people who find it so hard to trust or believe someone new yet close,in my life.Beware of fucking strangers,guys!

I smoked a lot these days,like really a lot.I went to my 2D friend's rooms almost 20 times a day.I had so much fun spending time with them.I was a little bit culture shocked,I guess.Please,we knew each other very well and we have been through a lot.Sounds soooo gay! Damn,I really miss being with those motherfuckers Faidi,Pojan,Adam,Syed,Paan,Bobby,Tasyrif,Sagak,Syakir and all!

This ain't my diversity.I hate meeting a new friend because I'm not good at making one.I really hope people were being truth to themselves when they told me that,time will heal everything.

END OF A GOOD,A REALLY GOOD YEAR

2011-01-01T00:33:00.000-08:00

I didn't celebrate New Year's Eve,like others.I'm not cool enough to be like them.Partying all night,going to concert,drinking alcohol,having sex and stuff.I'm not dissing anyone okay.Maybe I will figure out,what's so great celebrating an another year with that kind of activities.

Last night,I was heading to the top of Bukit Mewah,Kajang,where you actually can see a real panorama of Kuala Lumpur.I'm really captivated by those colorful fireworks from nearly 20 different places! I felt like,I was on Katy Perry's video.Next,I was playing cards with my friends.We laughed our ass off until the dawn.Nothing is more therapeutic than spent your time with old friends and talked about past your past that you have went through with them.

I can't believe how fast time flies.I going back to Johore tomorrow because my classes will be start on this upcoming Monday.I have to be strong.It's only four months,and then,semester break again! Just bring it on,I'm ready.I already had a lot great moments.I miss words tension and pressure! HAHA

It was an end of a really good year.They were so true,being 18 was the most daring year of your lifetime,it was a stage where you can resist everything except temptation or you're immobilized by your own curiousity.Thanks for everything,2010! The year which I learned a lot.

NEXT YEAR'S WISH

2010-12-28T09:38:00.000-08:00

"I want to be something,something that I never thought I could be."

-Muhammad Khalis.

You might think like,this guy is a loser,he hopes too much

2010-12-25T19:16:00.000-08:00

Only a few days left.I have to go back to Johore maybe on the first day of 2011 because my class will start on the third day.What a rush! Actually,I think I had an enough blast for this entire semester break.It was two months holiday and for God sake,only morons would say it was not enough! You know,too much sugar will kill us!

Damn,I don't know what happened to me lately.I've become an ambitious and high-spirited guy maybe because I've becoming what I can't be.A lot of events and incidents happened taught me that we can get whatever we want as long we work hard for it.Surprisingly,it was fucking true.I'm pretty shocked because I was a non-believer of those fairy-tale quotes kinda thing before!

Now,I am so ready to start my second semester! I want to make a special wishlist here,it is mainly about my college life next year!

Sit in a front seat,in all classes.
Less smoking,a pack for a week is good enough.
Less last minute study.
Voice out confidence when it comes to presentations.
Do the best in all of quizes and tests.
Work an ass off during final examination.
More active in English Language Society (ELS).
Get enough shower.
Get enough sleep.
Sleep well.
Ensure a comfortable bed for sleep.
Drink a lot of mineral water.
Eat more vegetables.
Eat two times a day.
Less junk food,like KFC,Pizza Hut and Secret Recipe,waste money!
Jogging,maybe three times a week.
No time to flirting with anyone.
Try to love all lecturers.
Pray harder.Insyaallah.

19 wishes resemble my age next year.I couldn't believe it,I will be 19! That is another story,let's get back on the track.You might think like,this guy is a loser,he hopes too much.Your life is going to be more peaceful and harmony if you think positively.I don't know what's going to happen to me in the future but let's just hope it will be a good thing.

Kita hanya merancang,Tuhan yang menentukan segalanya.

People laugh sarcastically when they heard about this.

2010-12-22T16:12:00.000-08:00

Speaking about ambition,do you ever have one? Are you in a right track in order to achieve it? I don't have any specific one.It's so confusing.I wanted to be a doctor when I was 5,a police when I was 8,an accountant when I was 14 and a lawyer when I was 17.

I have a short term ambition,an ambition which people laugh sarcastically when they heard about it.People can be so mean,but who can stop them,right? I want to be a student of a top university in our country.

I want to be a University of Malaya student.

Being underestimated is not a good feeling.You can say anything.You can laugh like there is no tomorrow.I have made up my mind and nothing can't stop me.Damn,do I sound too serious? Every dog has it days.My day will appear soon.I promise you,that I will be what I want to be.

Phsycopath Revealed!

2010-12-18T04:38:00.000-08:00

Follow lah blog aku,follow tau,follow tau,tau?

I received above notes,quite several times.I don't understand them,seriously.Come on,who can stand such things? You? Don't lie because I know you hate it as much as I am,didn't you? I mean,who are you? What makes you think people will follow you when you ask them to do so?

Besides,I don't get it when people get super-duper obsessed about the famous bloggers in Malaysia.I don't know them actually.In fact,I don't want to know about them.I only know Hanis Zalikha because everyone knows her in my campus.I visited her blog once and I'm pretty shocked to see her followers like,thousands of them! I can see a lot of people write about her,praise her and paste her pictures on their blogs.

Finally,I came up with a conclusion,that people want to be like her! Followers will make you popular.If you have more followers,then you will become more popular.That was what on their mind.It's funny when I viewed someone's blog and he wrote something sounds like this,

Aku rasa tak payah lah aku cerita siapa Hanis Zalikha,Cik Epal dan Sue Ann Joe ni.Kalau tak kenal jugak,baik berhenti jadi blogger lah.

Hahaha,kesah pulak aku? Baik kau je yang berhenti jadi blogger.Lepas tu kau pergi ampu,pergi kipas idola-idola kau tu.Is this some kind of extremely stupid blogging rules made by stupid people? It is mandatory to recognize those famous bloggers?

This has nothing to do with envy or jealousy.Maybe my blog is boring but it's clearly not an issue to me.When it comes to blogging,it is all about art.Yes,blogging is an art.Blogging is more than blogging to me.In my world,blogging requires my creativity to turn my emotional expression into something beneficial for my own sake.That was the only reason why I don't really care about followers and stuff.I don't hunt for fame because it is not my thing.

Blogging ain't an industry.Therefore,it is so much better if I have no followers at all compared to those people who are willing to kiss someone's ass just to increase the amount of their followers.Wake up morons,life is more than that.This is not an accusation.I'm not pointing my finger to anyone or put all the blame on someone's shoulder.I just thinking that I'm too awesome to be like them,a bunch of buttkissers and attention seekers!

You don't have to tell me to follow your blog because I will follow you only if I want to,okay?

Judgemental of beautiness

2010-12-16T17:21:00.000-08:00

There are two pictures down here.What do you think about the girl? Guys,please make your own selection,which girl suits your criteria?

Do you have any idea that they are the same person? She's Tiffany from sensational girl group of South Korea,called Girls Generation.I don't really know if she's underwent some surgeries or vice versa.I just knew it from my sister because she's more into K-pop stuff.Actually,I don't care as long as she's super cute and extremely gorgeous.I have downloaded her pictures into my cellphone.I just can't take my eyes off her!

Some people just keep bashing them because of plastic surgeries.Come on,what era do we live in right now? If you're looking for natural and stuff,let me send you to Amazon.I'm a simple person.I don't judge past.I don't deny someone's beauty.I'm just being truth to myself and that's make me feel that surgeries are fake substitution of hatred.

Do you know how it feels to be an ugly duckling? Do you know how it feels when you are powerless? Do you know how it feels when you didn't own any strength to appreciate yourself? No matter which road was taken,it's inappropriate for us to against it because everyone deserves to be beautiful.

The confession of differences and variations

2010-12-13T15:44:00.000-08:00

I used to envy those guys who really enjoyed playing guitar,skateboard,fixing bicycle,soccer,rugby and stuff.They even can write songs for their girlfriend! I mean,those activities which resemble any cool actions or mans world.

They seem to be perfect because they were pretty cool.You know,you can see those guys on most American teenage movies,want me to list down? It will takes forever.

The problem is,I think I'm 80% introvert.I enjoyed indoor activities most compared to the outdoor one because I thought it is more relaxing.Damn,when it comes to socialize,my life is all about extreme relaxation! Here are several activities I enjoyed most :

Smoke.It's a very bad bad habit but I never went through a day without it.
Karaoke.I sounds like a machine when I started to sing.No one cares actually.
DVDs.I watched nearly three movies a night.I can't avoid it,until now.
Games.You might think I'm a weirdo but I just finished playing my Pokemon Fire Red about last week.Lately,I'm working my ass off on Harvest Moon : Friends of Mineral Town.
Write.I love to write something inspirational for myself.
Draw.I love to draw something beyond my imagination.
Blog.I love blogging but I'm not a constant blogger though.
Cards.I'm addicted to it.I can spent eight hours a day on playing cards.
Dream.I create my own alter ego and other characters inside my mind.
Sleep.The best damn thing and the greatest gift of God.

See,there's nothing special about me.I was like your little brother.I was the least attractive guy compared to my friends or other guys.Girls will never look at me or fall in love with me,unless something is going wrong with their brains.People think what I need most is life,that was so mean.

Motherfuck,I do have a life and I don't give a damn if people called me lifeless.I can't deny it brings me no where physically but it brings me to somewhere far far far away to a level located in internal side of myself which can be spelled as satisfaction.I don't have to like the things that I dislike just to make myself more attractive in public eyes.I am not that desperate and I hate playing dramas.

I always said that I know I'm good at something but I just haven't found it yet.Well,I believe that.People born with different interests and that is where the ultimate word called variation came from.Being happy is my top priority.I will never be the old me again.The guy who didn't have any ability to appreciate himself just the way he are.

Life Is All About Moving On

2010-12-12T12:00:00.000-08:00

Just got back home from a long chat with a very good friend of mine,Ahmad Firdaus.We're not gossiping like two sluts nagging about something but it's more into manly conversation.I admit,every single time I met him,I always obtained a new lesson in my life.In other words,I really appreciate those moments I had.

As I grew older,I found it was difficult to meet someone who I can talk to mainly about everything.You know,I'm not the type of pathetic people who love to talk trash actually.

I miss all of my friends who used to be my brainwasher! I love to listen to their magical words.That was the only reason I really appreciated those so called guardian angels.Moreover,when a lot of really bad things happened to you and you just can't even swallow it anymore,that was the time you actually need those people.They calm you down,listen to your hectic problems and try to give a raw solution to help you.Please tell me,what could be more greater than that? God sent them to simplify our problems,to make our life much more easier.

But I realized,as times goes by,most of them just walk away from you and they went to meet someone because they think it's better to create a new storyline than live in an awful drama.I believe,friends walk away because they could walk away.I will not kiss their ass just to make them stay with me.When people walk away from you,just let them go because your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you.It's not that they are being mean to you.It's just their chapter in your life is over.

I don't want to live in a fantasy.I don't want to be a fool.I don't want to be influenced by those fairytale stories because they don't even exists.I'm sick of expect something beyond the ugly truth.I just want to keep it real.

Final examination - Result!

2010-12-09T15:22:00.000-08:00

I just opened my Google account and suddenly I found

I want to admit that I'm so happy,I could die right now! I screamed like a hell.You can say whatever you want,I don't care! HAHA

Ohh,happy day~

This means big enough for me.I thought I couldn't handle this course because it's not the course that I want at first,and I didn't applied for it.Besides,I think all of the subjects were extremely hard.Sometimes,I just want to gave up,quit and apply for another courses.I never thought I could score 3 or above because I didn't have any desirable passions that will lead to it.

But God has a better plan for me.I believe things happened for reasons.It was beyond my expectation! However,it's just another victory.Obviously,I still got a long way to go.I must work harder starting from now.Damn,I kinda really like my life right now because I feel like I already accomplished something which I never thought I could.Alhamdulillah.

Kawan-kawan,jangan jealeous! Sekarang,boleh lah aku tidur dengan nyenyak sehingga January.

Kamu semua ada bela binatang tak?

2010-12-09T01:11:00.000-08:00

I once have a lot of pets.Squirrel,goldfish,tortoise,lizard and cat.I never bought them,they just came naturally to my house.At certain stages,I don't think I could be able to handle all of them.I believe animals can hear what you don't say.Therefore,

My squirrel and tortoise were ran away maybe because they felt unwanted.HAHA.
My goldfishes were dead.
My lizard got killed by neighbor's cat.

All of those nonsense pets were my sister's idea.Damn,I dislike pets which I can't kiss or hug.I just can't feel their love.You know,like fish,they live underwater,they will never listen to what you say.Tortoise,they weren't friendly at all,always went inside their shells whenever I want to play with them.Squirrel,I don't blame them because I'm not a big fan of small hairball,I hate rats and their friends.Lizard,I don't have any idea what to do with them.

Cat! Cat was the only exception! I owns a cat.I called her Tommy.Wait a minute,the cat is a girl so what's up with her name? Tommy? I can explain this.I found her inside the store backyard when she was a baby,she was alone with no family.I felt pity so I decided to take her home.At that time,she's very petite,her gender was unidentified and I thought she was a boy.I just named her Tommy!

She's not very pretty compared to your cats,or other cats.She's black and she couldn't walk well because she's handicapped.Besides,she also got a sightness problem,I think she was half-blinded.She's not so friendly with people she didn't used to.But that doesn't affect my love towards her.She's 2.1 kg now.She eat a lot.She sleep a lot.Just like me.She slept with me every night and she's the one who woke me up the next day.Whenever I have problem and I need to talk to someone,I talked to Tommy.She's understanding,she maybe looks stupid and clueless but once I look deep inside her eyes,I can hear,

Be strong baby,I knew you can do it!

No one likes her,those kids hate her so much because they said Tommy was ugly.They used to hit Tommy with rackets when they were playing badminton in front of my house.I was like,you hit my cat,in front of my house? Not once,not twice but what?

Lepas tu mulut aku tak henti-henti bagi salam sayang cerca bernanah dekat budak-budak tu.Aku tak ambil peduli anak siapa,miskin ke kaya,anak emas ke anak yatim,aku sembur je.Ye lah,siapa tak marah,kucing tu dah aku anggap macam keluarga aku sendiri,boleh pula nak pukul-pukul.Celaka.

Berita sedih : Tommy dah tak virgin lagi.Aku ada video dia mengawan dengan kucing rumah sebelah,memang sakan!

Past remains as past.

2010-12-06T06:33:00.001-08:00

I just opened my school yearbook.You know what type of book,didn't you? Mine was called Inspirasi,I know it sounds weird.It was last year session,which is my final year in the school.I was laughing my ass so bad when I saw those class photos because some of my friends gave a bizzare faces on those photos!

Especially when I turned into the pages where my class was on.Ohh,I really miss them because I never met most of them after school ends.I wonder what happened to them.When we were in high school,we made a lot of pinky promises like,

Habis SPM ni,kita kerja nak? Kerja satu tempat lah senang,apa-apa hal boleh mengumpat.
Lepas tu,kita sewa la rumah,duduk ramai-ramai,baru best!
Nanti kalau nak buat driving license,inform lah aku,boleh buat sama-sama!

Well,like I mentioned just now,it was just a pinky promises.Back on that time,I knew it will not going to be happen but I kept myself silent because I don't have guts to ruining that so called precious moments.All of those promises didn't really happened,everyone just mind their own businesses including me.Well,I'm not surprised at all.

When I was in Form 2,I remembered my teacher,Mrs.Zarani said,

Zaman awak sekolah ni,awak semua hargailah dengan sebaik-baiknya.Sebab ia salah satu jangka masa yang paling seronok dalam hidup awak.Lepas habis sekolah,susah awak nak berkumpul sama-sama lagi.Percayalah cakap saya.

I never forget what she said and that's what I interpreted to my soul.Luckily,I managed to graduated in high school with bittersweet memories and of course I will remember the sweet one most.The place where I met myself,my bestfriends,and also my first girlfriend.

I learned it is important to live our current live to the fullest.I think,I appreciate every moments of my high school life.I'm not a drama king but seriously high school is more than high school to me.

p/s : Just finished watch Japanese drama,My Boss My Hero.That's why I'm feeling so in the school mood!